i rule the world! (:

2009-01-22T04:15:00.001+08:00

MOVED(:
http://miniaturedolls.livejournal.com

2009-01-07T21:44:00.002+08:00

Ok guys, its confirmed. January 12th babes. I just want to be a single pointer and either go to acjc or vjc. I am very very very very very very scared!!!! I WANT TO GET A SCORE LOWER THAN 10 AND GET INTO A GOOD SCHOOL!!!!! AHHHHH IM FREAKING OUT NOW! OMG HOWHOWHOWHOHOW. GOD PLEASE HELP ME! I really want to be a single pointer!!!! please please please

2009-01-01T22:24:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR :D
2008 passed really fast! It's like a brand new beginning now. Other than the fact that 2008 filled me with major anxiety and paranoia problems due to big Os :\, it was a kinda-good year:D

Despite the kinda-big number of people in cloupe, we managed to get closer! :D From mini shopping-movie trips, steamboats,karaoke,birthday surprises to recent night cycling and meet ups on almost every single day once holidays started, it definitely allowed us to get to know each other better. Although its kinda sad that we only got really much closer this holiday, I mean its better than nothing right? haha Many thanks to all of you who made my holidays more entertaining:D May our 11 meetups work out in 2009 haha Thanks to wrongway-street for supporting cloupe's night cycling too! haha
Countdown was awesomezx (: Thanks cel for planning! haha Totally heart mavis-shi's almond jelly, cas's fried rice, cel's honey 'dew sago(other than the pomelo), obnoxious(adorable) little brat's(kid's) beehoon and moreee! Almond jelly is LOVE! I heart almond jelly! Its the best thing on earth!!! Hahaha Had gift exchange on new years eve too due to the fact that there was no xmas partaye haha Went to the playground to play. Swings, gulping down of drinks too fast, weird-scary-dizzy teacup rides, freaky-rope climbing thingy and three suspicious-scary men basically sums it up. *Thinking about the tea cup thing is making me feel dizzy now...
Went back, felt sleepy, played twister(yoga positions), sang with guitar and talked crap till next morning. Monsoon was ringing in the house the whole night. Before I slept the others were playing monsoon, when I woke up, monsoon was still being played!!! haha Went fish&co for lunch. Then rested in cel's house before going home. Everything was just fun!(:

Other highlights of the year was crezawards, ROD, delta's christmas party', 4s1 winning chinese new year thingy and more(cant remember for the time being).

I hope 2009 will be a AWESOME year! Oh and its the breakthrough of nunhood too =.= hahahaha May I be a single pointer for O's, get into a good JC and enjoy JC life!(:

*Pardon the bad vocabulary and other flaws in this post. Havent been speaking/writting proper english for close to two months o.o

From now onwards, it is the start of something new(:

2008-12-28T23:55:00.003+08:00

I'm glad I went to church cause service was great today(: How was your last Sunday of the year?
I think I'm one helluva selfish kid. Insecurities perhaps? I should have known this day would come soon enough, and I guess its time to learn something called independence. At this point of time I'm happy yet scared at the same time.
I'm worried for almost every single thing. I'm oversensitive, paranoid and I hate myself for that. Actually I don't think anyone would understand what I am talking about cause I'm too shy to share my problems. So don't try to be Alex(smart Alec) and guess what I'm talking about if anyone even bothers to T.T

2008-12-23T19:39:00.004+08:00

URGHHH IMMA PISSED GIR!!! >:( I just found out I stupidly exposed my film in the room light!!! Great job chan xiang liang. Now youre only left with 7 friggin pictures >:( Gahhh Screwed my first roll of film on pinky :\ Sigh...

This is the only picture taken from 56th clt POP (?!)

Pictures from night cycling:

Chasing pavements

Im sorry some of you got cut out:\

Grassland

Alienation:

Masked

Oh wells whats left is left :\ For amazing greece pictures, visit SOPHIE'S BLOG!!! Its damn nice~~~ It makes me wanna go GREECE!!!
Click!

2008-12-21T00:46:00.002+08:00

2008-12-16T02:04:00.000+08:00

Ouran(:

2008-12-12T00:35:00.003+08:00

Great! Just great! I dropped my phone into a plate fulll of chilli sauce and even after cleaning it, IT STINKS!!! >: (
Had the feeing that I will drop my phone today but dont know when. And of all places to drop, it decided to drop into the chilli sauce!!! Grrrrr The last time I had this ''feeling'' was last year during mass run. I knew I would fall down and I really did =.= In the end got a horrible scar as the road decided to scrape some flesh out of me >:( Grrr!!!

Work on saturday again :( Butbut theres Chin x2 to motivate me!!! Yay yay yay! Im so excited! The food is good and cheap. Best! Cant wait!!!(:

Enjoy TW and HK levia~~ Chinx2 and rockband/guitarhero when you come back:D

tag reply;
Serene(: ; haha its ok! We can always figure stuff out!(: Im not that good either hahaha

2008-12-11T00:06:00.003+08:00

Omg.. I pray for soap's and anne's saftey!! There's like bird flu in hong kong and riots in greece. My gosh, I hope they will be safe and sound!!! :( Can they like hurry come back so we dont have to worry so much!!! :( Hope they'll be alright and wont get stranded in the country they are in :(

tag replies;

serene; Haha I havent thought of any commoner stuff yet! Haha Just hope for a warm xmas? Not literally though haha Hurry come back then can have baking partayee! And I didnt go down to check but saw one a bugis! We can go see see then try(: haha

anne; haha omg dont read!!! I read just now and I almost puked and laughed my pants off. So *shivers... haha

wx; STOP LAUGHING AT MEEE :( SOBSOB i know i was a ''twit'' when i was young and stupid haha

2008-12-09T00:11:00.003+08:00

Ok this is damn random but yeah.. So anyway I was reading friends page in livejournal, then I came upon this post by this random person in bakebakebake community. She made spongebob and patrick cookies!!! :OOOOO Ok that's not the main point. The main point is, once I saw the photos of the spongebob and patrick, SOPHIE STARTED APPEARING IN MY MIND AND HER LAUGHTER SEEMS TO BE RINGING IN MY EARS O.O Haha Miss soap and anne :( One is in greece enjoying the historic sites, one is in hk enjoying jacuzzi with cup of teas o.o Haha Hope they come back soon!!! And I think I really need more sleep before more cloupe member voices starts ringing in my ears?!

Oh yah, I'm so sorry that I haven't sent you guys prom photos :X Im like a lost meh heh heh(sheep). I cant find a way to zip the stupid folder and send it to you guys. But wan xuan is helping me soon. So yeapp(: Be a little patient! Haha And I think I am damn random, I feel like buying a cute picnic basket!!! Saw one online and its like 45?! :\

Okok so half of my xmas wish list is out(: Most of them is damn ex =.= I dont even think I can get it please :\
1. PINK vaio, with pink mouse and pink laptop casing ( ULTIMATE MAN!)
2. Cute and nice Picnic basket!(:
3. The new ipod with different colours thingy(: ( I want purple if they have or pink will be fine:D )
4. Learn blading before school reopens.
5. Learn how to swim properly ( yes shut, I know I suck but whatever!!! >:( hahaha)
6. Go japan!!!
7. A ice blender ( Yes I know I'm random/weird but don't you think blending stuff very fun! :D)
8. A cake mixer. ( When baking cakes, when the recipe says slow speed, its manageable.However at HIGH SPEED... its a different story hahaha)

Ok I shall start to plan which one to get from dad as xmas present :D Anyone wants to contribute to any items please feel free to do so.I will throw in a small handmade gift and free hugs HAHAHAHA If anyone even reads this =.=

2008-12-06T01:21:00.004+08:00

Last day of the attachment to kid thingy Haha. I like the younger kids, damn cuteeeee!!! Quite fun to teach them english too(: Haha Mr Ravi's teaching sure comes to good use! haha

Ok so today's work passed by super fast! Dont know why but time seemed to pass by very quickly.Like what levia said, it must be because of her. Haha Work turned out to be work + mini karaoke session, but poor JFM was out there calling her bejamin/alvin/whatever applicable. Haha. Oh yah and levia~~~~ Tried to ask for OT pay for monday's Hari Raya Haji but R didnt pick up!!! >:( Oh wells today's' quite productive! I finished 5 chapters :D Kudos to me! Haha

Then after work, went to may hui's house for BBQ. Beside us was A BIG GROUP but ours only 5 people. *cough the organiser never come HAHA But its pardonable since she has work haha Cooked, introduction talk to me about mix school life, learnt to measure things, Girl guider hazel helped build fire, Jodie and her sausages, May hui and her black polo tee hottie and my black singlet cup of tea and not to forget Ice teaching us FLOWERY thai language. Gosh my friends are so damn polluted =.= But i still heart them hahaha Thanks to MH's father to send Jodie and I home(:

2008-12-04T20:08:00.002+08:00

Ok.. So I finally got a job!(: Good job chan xiang liang! Haha Working at rick's to do typing work with mavis, livvi, JFM and levia(tmr!) haha. At first I was damn enthusiastic about the job! But then after a while we all went crazy and almost died of boredom typing stuff :( Started singing to songs and dancing in the room, until the lady had to walk in to tell us to keep quiet twice :( haha But nevermind, got money can already. Haha But the pays' really little :( After 9 hours of work ony 45bucks sigh sigh sigh

Monday; First day of work!(: Was almost late so took cab >: ( Waste money tsktsk! Ended work at 7pm then went with mav and liv to cck to meet anne and soap to go to wan xuan's house to put our things. Then half of us cabbed down to vics' and the other half to chess' house to get bikes. Then met and stuff then cycled to west coast (: The night scene was not as awesome as the previous time one :( But oh wells. Then went to sheng siong to buy picnic stuff!!(: Had an awesome time shopping for stuff! I heart grocery shopping with friends and alot of money! Hahahaha Took the long & flat escalator funfunfunnn Then rock paper scissors with ches to see if purple or green grapes win. Sadly green grapes won sighsigh. Then went to eat prata(FATS) HAHA then to west coast~~! Brough pinky out to play, chatted, ate then splitted to sleep, lie on rocks and to the canal?! Ches brought melon dont know what. Smells damn niceeee! But can't try cause next day got work :( Cycled back to macs for toilet? (i forgot) Then went to return bikes.
Kudos to wrongway-street for guiding us,being so patient with us and lending us the bikes!:D Sorry for screaming like ?!?!?! too heh. Will try to cut down on the screams next time haha
Had an AWESOME night (:
Went back to wan xuan's house to get our stuff then cabbed home. Another 20 bucks sighhh Then slept for one an a half hour then off to work, late again :( Felt naseous :\ happily went home at 7 haha.
wed;
Went to work, late again so cabbed... (I SPENT ONE DAYS' PAY ON CAB ARLEADY >:( TSK TSK) accompanied a boy to eat katong laksa?! for the project thing. Had some difficulty communicating at first cause hes like...... but got okok after a while(: Thank god for lessening awkward moments! haha Mav,liv and I spent the whole day contemplating if we should join the rest for movie/dinner. But just joined for dinner in the end. HOKKAIDO ICE CREAMMM(: Yumm heart mango!:D haha then went home. Cup of teas on the bus(HAHA) but seemed too old.

thurs;
Work, sang.dance to nobody, work till wanna die, moan,groan,complain, failed-payrise, home(:

2008-11-28T23:49:00.004+08:00

Inner bitch alert. Please go to another website if not comfortable with complains.

I don't' get it. Will someone explain to me?

IS REPLYING A MESSAGE TO JUST REQUIRE YOU TO REPLY OK OR NOT OK (OR WHATEVER APPLICABLE) DIFFICULT?

SERIOUSLY WHAT IS SO FREAKING DIFFICULT?! I NEED SOMEONE TO ENLIGHTEN ME.

edited;
felt a lil mean saying those stuff oh wells! haha

This is bad, real bad. The inner bitch is taking over me! I need to attend yoga class to relieve tension and anger :O
On a lighter note, cel's back so ROCK BAND party can carry on! I hope its sunny on Sunday and Monday night. I hope my interviews will go well and I hope I can get a job soon.

Who thinks I need to be nicer/meaner/remain? Your advices/comments like how to react to such situations are greatly appreciated(: (real smile not sarcastic already!!! haha)

2008-11-24T00:03:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I wonder why am I so nice? I mean I can be a real B sometimes but I think I really think too much and care too much about other's feelings. It's either me or does everyone feel this way?

(Ok I know the past is the past but just using an example, if you can relate to this do still know I still love you)

Scenario A.

Person A says something and the thing she said was WRONG/BAD/MEAN. So I disagree and scold(talkback) the person A. However everyone disagrees with me and agrees with person A. Only after a while everyone then realise person A is wrong, and starts saying they should have trusted/listened to me. Then everyone starts talking/ criticizing person A. But I, feeling bad that people are talking bad about A/ just releasing the inner ms.nice, I decide to defend A and end up being the one being bitched about. Then I either get pissed / just accept the bitchiness and forgive the people.

Scenario B.

No matter how bad/mean/shitty a person is last time, I can still treat it as nothing happened and be nice to the person.

Scenario C.

I think I think too much. And no matter whether I'm wrong or right, I'm the one who apologises first and make the thing seem like my fault to make the other party feel happier MOST OF THE TIME.

Seriously I should stop being so nice, ok I know after reading the stuff above you might think, ''Chey like that only what, very nice meh?'' BUT you really just won't understand what its like if you're the one experiencing it. Maybe you did? I don't know.

*P.S the post above does not refer to a specific person. Its just that I just fought with my _ and I'm starting to wonder WHY AM I SO NICE TO _. I mean I know _ is my _ but how come I don't see/heard of any _ so nice from people I know?

SEE I told you I think too much. =.= Ok so anyway today isn't such a bad day. At least I spent my time doing something useful(: I baked muffins today!:D haha And its like my first time baking muffins FROM SCRATCH. I need to get a mixer asap. My hands almost died when the recipe method said low speed then HIGH SPEED hahaha Credits to bakebakebake(:

Ok after seeing the picture, please guess what it is. Don't cheat! Answer is below post, spelt backwards. (IF ANYONE EVEN READS THIS POST, although I highly doubt anyone does =.= tag easy to guess/ its far from it!!! + what you thought it was. TYVM haha cause my dad and sis and maid broke my heart and I need assurance to see if my visualisation really suck :\) Look at the muffin as one by one, means there's 9 shown below haha I missed out one part of how the real thing supposed to be cause I forgot to buy it so you gotta imagine abit.

Picture below(:

peehs/bmal

Did you get it correct?(:

2008-11-21T22:18:00.007+08:00

Ok.. Going to talk about the past events backwards cause apparently all my photos are uploaded the other way round =.= haha Ok... Met cloupe(part) at vivo to meet grace for dinner. However grace forgot about it and thought it was thursday so we went dinner ourselves haha walked around to decide to eat what for dinner and finally decided to eat at some cafe thingy. It's not bad! Haha ok then walked around to shop. Went zara kids and the clothes are all so nice! Soap tried a dress and looked awesome in it but decided to give it a miss :( Oh wells. Then went to cels' awesome house! Played ROCKBANDDD!!! AWESOME BABEHHH! Played it the whole night. slept, woke up, played abit, ate then went back to play till six plus. Its like our whole life revolves around rockband o.o haha But its so fun!!! Went home and while in the bathroom i started humming the RB songs =.= haha So sad celine went to aussie, guess we all have to wait for her return to have more RB parties. haha
Oh oh and naughty anne has 4 O.N.S. She even wanted teddy and wx :ooooo guess what O.N.S is hahaha

Monday was after-prom sleepover at soap's house. Went to watch madagascar before that, and the show was FABULOUS!!! Haha I love alex and melman so cute(X oh and motomoto too he's so macho :ooo haha half of us cabbed and half of them walked. Bathed, aunt roda, open close, coffee tea till next morning. Donuts & MTV fell asleep and went home. Sugar is sooo cutee! But very skinny :( she needs to eat more~~ Sparky is like a sheep o.o very very fluffy its cute but kinda scary cause soap said it can bite :O haha

Monday was prompompompom! Ok before you look at the pictures and start laughing at my not-so-fabulous body & not-me-makeup, skip this post if you don't want to see k haha Well prom was okok. Ok warning to those who want to have prom makeup & hair done. HS sucks (please ask me if you wanna know what HS stands for). Firstly the appointment we made was sat at 3pm but they totally ignored us and started doing ONE BY ONE the hair & makeup. In addition they only started doing us cause we only started to show black face & question the stupid lady. Firstly THERESABSOLUTELY NO SENSE OF URGENCY AT ALL in their services. I mean its ok to take sufficient time to do the hair and stuff nicely for the person. But while we were waiting like for 123423423 years, we overheard the stupid lady asking the other lady if they should ask more people to come and help. And the stupid Lady rejected. I wanted to strangle that lady. I mean you ask people to make appointments and since you know there is going to be so many people coming, get more help! And if you don't want to, you should jolly well know the pathetic number of helpers you asked to go down today is insufficient for the huge amount of customers. If you cant handle it don't accept so many customers! Isn't that basic COMMON SENSE? Urghh talking about it irks me. So lets move on. OK so prom was ok(: food was fine but no one was listening to the emcee =.= all were busy taking photos haha oh yah! Mrs rupa looked AWESOME!!! so pretty that night(: Ok below are the pictures, my friends look AWESOME but please don't laugh at me TYVM(: haha

cloupe!! (missing livvi)

long time no see friend dawn(:

weird faces

i really think they look good together.... :X

dancefloor~~

screweddddd

mdm kwan(:

MRS GEK!!!! AWESOME TEACHER FTW!!!

pretty cas(:

serene & toon looked awesome too!(:

I lead a super boring life. Thank god for cloupe & delta, my life is made a more wonderful one. Haha Pinky is coming tomorrow! Super eggcited. WAN XUAN I WANT MY CYCLING AND PRATA & STAYOVER AT YOUR HOUSE! hahaha although i know F & anne will be jealous of me asking you to bring us to eat prata im sorry i want prata hehe. I want cloupe picnic!!! Ineed a job & to catch up with people ASAP. Help? P.S sorry for the dark photos :X

2008-11-16T13:28:00.005+08:00

Os' ARE FINALLY OVER. YESYESYESYESYESSS! haha Ok so lets see, after os, i have totally no idea what time/day/date it is and have to constantly ask around or check my phone. hahaha Did i tell you how much i love my dad?(:: Guess what he got me!!!! The Sony Ericsson's xperia phone :OOOOOOO hahaha However its going to my sis today i guess, since she loves it so much, much more than me and i don't really mind her phone haha

Thursday;
'Class lunch', shiyu's party
Friday;
Michelle's' party
Saturday;
NINE HOURS OF SHOPPING STRAIGHT. Thanks sis, Wendy and waihan!(: My legs became so sore and (toned) HAHA But finally got my accessories, dress and clutch. Got a black dress from mango :X I hope no one got it cause i hope everyone thinks 'I'm not going to wear any black dresses cause someone else will wear it' and hopefully I'm the only one wearing the black dress from mango. Omg the worst thing that can ever happen is for someone to wear the same dress and accessorize the same way o.o haha but i hope that NEVER happens hehe. Quite excited for prom now after swearing I hate it cause EVERYTHING'S DONE :OOOOO except for the hair and makeup tomorrow. talking bout that i haven't figured how i want my hair to be :\ Oh wells shall just find some random simple hairstyle hahaha
So... hows life everyone? (:: Anyway, I NEED A JOB :( anyone got any job offers?:D

edited

2008-09-15T21:13:00.005+08:00

HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL! :D

Sunday;

tried dress.cut hair.bra's house.tasty awesome salad.gabby.flabby.bee hoon.ang bao chicken?.nuggets.carpark.lanterns.SCARY explosive sparklers.candles.scrape wax.recycling scented candles.pictures.mooncake.home. A.MA.ZING!

Im sure we also learnt to watch out for our hair when playing with fire, and

HAIR IS FLAMMABLE. *snigger

Today;

8th degree.Hw with sophie as tutor.Food.Pool.Zhong ji mi ma._ education.Talk cock.

I have been going out consecutively for 4 days *shakes head. Need to study soon!!!

*sighsighsigh

2008-09-13T01:26:00.002+08:00

Show you hot guy! The guy on the right so hot right???? *melts if youre bored(which i dont think anyone should be at this time) go search for him! hehe

Anyway i totally screwed up my chem, stupidly went to change answers that were correct to wrong ones >:( Itchy hands & itchy brain. Sighsighsigh Well i just do hope i wont get an l1r5 abouve 35. Yes yes to all of you smart kids out there i know you are aiming at what 10? Or better 6 -,- 35 is absurd! But obviously I didnt really study much(or did i even study) below 35 would be acceptable(: So dont go thinking 'aiyoh this girl crazy get so high for prelims!' So yepp(:

Sakura with 2bears, antelope,rabbit & elephant wannabe and 2 dont know what animals.Eat.Shit.Walk around.Cheesy sausages from home.Lamb being steak.Lettuce over beef/anything on the table.3 birthdays in 1 dinner. Got made fun for my p. Got saddened by what constance said about j2.Photos. Long ride home. Lovers. A.MA.ZINGGGG

2008-09-11T01:58:00.002+08:00

THIS.ISNT.WORKING!!!!!!!!!
Just look at what date i made the decision to stop using the computer and what date it is now. Totally no self-discipline!!! >:( I even got myself hooked onto a new korean drama on chn 55.
1. The girl is super cute/funny/embarassing
2. The story quite interesting
3. The guy quite cute
4. The guy very cute
5. THE GUY DAMN CUTEEEEE!
Haha Now Im like staying up almost every night to wait for my show to start at 12.05am No wonder the eyebags and pimples are out to see the world!!! >:( But for the show, nothing matters! Its damn nice! Its good that it starts so late and im hooked on it. Cause its my motivation to study first then watch! It worked today :D At least I did some chemistry and know a little more about QA and stuff :D But today ok I mean yesterday couldve been better IF I STUDIED HARDER!
I realise refraining from the computer is ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE. So... I shall refrain from msn. Cause I always spend hours talking crap and being lame about people's pms. So.. can use computer! BUT NO MSN. Lets see how long I can last again :D
I was like toasting my sausage yesterday and I had a sudden craving for steamboat! The one with the bbq and soup one, but everyones so busy with their school work and my sis would never want to have a steamboat with me and obviously itd be weird to eat steamboat ALONE. Total loserrr hahaha So i shall save the craving till the end of Os(gosh thats damn long) then invite people over to have steamboat party :D hehehe
I have totally no idea why Im posting useless stuff now. Truth is Im supposed to finish my electrolysis mcq before I sleep but WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE.
Ok finefine, I think I shall use the comp till maybe 2.30 then hopefully do some work and get to bed. Sounds good?
Well I dont care if it sounds good to you or not though -.- haha
DENGDENGDENG BYE.

2008-09-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

OMGOMG THERES LIKE ONLY 41MORE DAYS TO Os. I counted wrongly and thought left 50 days!!! Ok Im like trying to dare myself not to go on the comp for 40days unless its like downloading important stuff from mlg or something.No msn :( Cheer me on k! I need to like instill self-discipline in myself which is obviously kinda tough.
I screwed prelims and Im definitely not gonna screw up my Os.
Im feeling damn scared now.
JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!!

oh and obviously you cant see my point right?

2008-08-31T22:52:00.002+08:00

If youve been wondering what Ive been doing for the past 2 days, well if you look at the pictures below its quite obvious isnt it? :DDDD Was feeling bored on saturday night (although i know i have totally no time to be bored) so i decided to see how great super junior is, and the first thing i watched was FULL HOUSE! And there you go another fan of suju(X Haha. They are so CUTE! HOT! NICE! FUNNY! AND CUTE AND CUTE AND CUTE!!! *hyperventilates

KOREA #1 HANDSOME GUY KANGIN!!!!!

ADORABLE & FUNNY HEECHUL

hothothothothotttttt

I know this isnt the time to idolise people and stuff, but they are so awesome in helping to relieve stress!!! Hearing their songs/ watching them in full house makes people feel just so happy! Although i would very much like to drool over ki bum, ana has taken him alr, so i shall just stick to my heechul and kangin *melts
Im dead, im still at episode 9 and i have yet to watch other stuff about them. Sighsighsigh

2008-08-10T16:54:00.003+08:00

N'day celebration was disgusting. Everything was so dull. Community singing USED TO i repeat used to be the best part of the celebration, but i guess this year's really sucked. I mean who sits down to sing... Some people were really being so fierce and strict on nday. I mean its nday, hello friend? Relax man!
But still, the songs played never fails to affect my emotions. Last year's celebration, we were so afraid for this year's celebration to come, cause we know it would be our last nday celebration and everyone would be quite busy studying for prelims and all after this celebration.
Home. Its been a long time since I felt warmth in this house, but i guess life carries on dont it?
After the celebration was MUCH better. Company was awesome! Haha bra's sis was so nice! She made brownies for us haha. Bought food up to gracia's house and connie treated us indian rojak :D Fufilled my craving for chicken rice already haha More awesome stuff happened, but i shant say anything about it. Haha
I think Im really stupid man... I spent SIX hours on ONE amath paper yesterday. Ok, its not even ONE, its only part two... Damn slow right? Sighsighsigh
Watched olympics just now, the sportsman/women so cool! Haha Now watching nday on tv. I miss parade days, nc days and awesome but not so awesome sightseeing. But obviously everything is over now, so time to move on again! Just read connie's blog, her post made me even sadder! Sighsighsigh! I hope i can comquer more homework/revision later!(:

I got a secret to tell. Shh..shh..shhhhh.shhhh.....shhhh.shhh....shhhhh.shhhhs........shhhhh...shhhh..shhhh.shhhhhhh......
shhhhhh..Shh..shh..shhhhh.shhhh.....shhhh.shhh....shhhhh.shhhhs........shhhhh...shhhh..shhhh.shhhhhhh......
shhhhhh

sounds familiar bra? *raises brow hahaha

2008-07-30T22:38:00.003+08:00

ACKKK! I want to kill my stupid brain! Everytime I do moles, i forget all the basics so I have to reread the whole chapt, then do and the next time i go back, i forget everything again!!!! ARGH!!! *pulls hair

1. I want my DTF!!! = MY XIAO LONG PAUS
2. I miss some people, ALOT ALOT goodluck k! do your best!!!
3. I had 3 weird dreams yesterday
a. my dad scolding me say since i 'fall sick' so much he is NEVER going to write letters for me any more
b.- is in - and was chasing me and my sis -.-
c. Ana, nita and I were invited to go to 35th ake -.-

STUPID RIGHT? ok i shall study SOON

2008-07-26T00:24:00.002+08:00

This is bad! Im not really studying! Shucks only 20+ days before prelims! Sighsighsigh

Dear _ _ _ _ _,
dont forget me k :(
I know this is a little too late but yeah. I suddenly feel like saying it :(

2008-07-13T23:09:00.002+08:00

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody

Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady

Put your hand way up high

We will never say bye

(no, no, no)

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers,

friends and cousins

This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers

Lift your head to the sky 'cause

we will never say bye

As a child there were them times

I didn't get it

but you kept me in line

I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes

On Sunday mornings,

and I missed you

But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things

Separation brings

You never let me know it

You never let it show because

You loved me and obviously

There's so much more left to say

If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on like

"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

Miss you but I try not to cry

As time goes by

And soon as you reach a better place

Still I'd give the world to see your face

And I'm right here next to you

But it's like you're gone too soon

Now the hardest thing to do

is say bye bye

Bye bye

And you never got the chance

to see how good I've done

And you never got to see me

back at number one

I wish that you were here to celebrate together

I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night

With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight

I thought you were so strong

You'd make it through whatever

It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

The radio really shouldnt play such sad songs, cause sometimes it really reflects some people's lives and makes them sad all over again. However, I wouldnt deny that this is a nice song with nice tune and stuff.

I think some people are super disappointed in me for not studying. C'mon which sec 4 isnt really studying? Me. I shall try to abstain myself from the comp these few days, weeks or even better, months.

Im also quilte sad that I kinda del something. And that was the only one i have. But oh wells i'd get over it soon enough.

Move on.

2008-07-11T22:50:00.002+08:00

Ever heard about superficial friends?
Just because for your own conveniece you refuse to go to the extra mile.
If you cant give anything, dont receive at all. Treat other like how you want to be treated.
Why should others prioritise you if you dont give a damn about people during normal time?
Sighsighsigh thats the diff between _ and _!!!

I miss delta :( sobsobsobsobsosb and i smell like a hamster URGHH shouldnt have played with them after i bathe :\ Waking up to study tmr and i hope it works!!! I still cant work out whose the girl and whose the guy!!! shucks :\ Im too tired to joke now so i shall sleep soon. Okay bye world bye, i think my mood is quite bad now :\

2008-07-10T22:57:00.002+08:00

Ok was too tired to blog yelsterday so i sha lpost today.
Yesterday was an AWESOME AWESOME DAY!(:

Thought that today was just going to be JUST ANOTHER DAY, but turned out I was wrong! Haha. Started out the day by waking up a lil later than usual and eating the 1st piece of small heart shape cake my sis bought(: Then rushed to schoo for journal writting :\

Suprise no.1 =Ainslee bought me breakfast! :D A can of coffee so i wont sleep, bread & gobstoppers HAHA thanks partner!!! :D

Felt so bad during recess, thought we would celebrate after school so didnt want to go down. But turned out we were REALLY celebrating during recess haha. Sorry cloupe! Sang song blah blah blah

Suprise no.2 = A mango pouch i wanted!!! :D Haha They said it was veggies! And i really thought it was cabbage cause it was in an ntuc plastic bag with newspaper around it -.- HAHAHA

Suprise no.3 = GUCCI & PRADA ON MY TABLE!!!! :D ok not the the real thing, but 2 HAMSTERS :OOOOO

Was damn shocked when i saw it please! Haha But I was kinda afraid my dad and sis wont accept them :( but in the end my dad said i can keep if i promise to take good care of it:D YAYAYAYAYAYYYY

a: eh mrs gek want to see you after school for a while
me: for what? dont want laaaa
a: for mock or dont know what just stay back
me : finefinefine :\

After chem, went out to throw my coffee and turned out the subordinates of MACHO man(or sth like that) and delta was there!!

So played some trial thing and finally into the canteen. Eat, get sprayed like a cupcake , took photos and then to G1.
Thanks bra for that wonderful video!!! Quite sad but at least we're not gonna die and can meet up!!!(:

Dinner at crystal jade was nice(: Saw_ & _ &_, was so shocked i didnt reply anything. sheesh :\ Oh wells thanks to all the aunties and uncles and cousins for everything(:

To Bravo08:

Thanks for everything today!It was really sweet of you guys to plan such an awesome 'party'(: very new and interesting and fresh idea HAHA But so sad no real macho man? HAHAHA jk! Thanks for everything! The self dyed bear, pretty hand drawn card, tiara and PURPLE garland haha THANK YOU & YOU & YOU X 18 haha

Thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday, gave me stuff and everythingggg (: Its nice this year, and thanks for everyone who made my day a great one(:

Not a very good post but my eyes are closing, might edit this post if im bored/free. Pictures of gucci and prada another day(:

2008-07-09T23:00:00.001+08:00

My sister just made me so touched till i ... :(
I love my sisterrrrrr(: Shes the bestest of the besttt :D

2008-07-07T19:14:00.004+08:00

Some photos taken by the vivi which cost me twenty bucks!!!:

2008-07-06T14:38:00.020+08:00

Here we are, in the best years of our lives
With no way of knowing, when the
whee'll stop spinning cause we don't know where we're going...
and here we are, on the best day of our lives.
And it's a go, lets make it last, so cheers you
all to that, 'cause this moment's never comin' back

From ALPHA05 to DELTA08, we've been through more than anyone else. The way we are now is what we worked hard for. The fun times, the bad times we've been through made us closer. Sometimes to do some stuff, we had to choose the part over studies, causing some of our studies to be neglected. However, sacrifices has to be made, we cant have the cake and eat it. But Im thankful to have platoonmates like all of you. I dont know how to put my feelings into words but definitely, NCC is one thing i will never forget in my life. You guys have provided me with so many wonderful memories that will forever be etched in my heart.

Dear delta,

thank you for all the things youve done for me. Im sorry for all the silly things I've said or mean/stupid things I've done.Seriously, I wouldnt have been who I am if not for you guys. You guys taught me the meaning of selflessness, controlling of temper and most improtantly the value of giving. I learnt not to take out my temper on innocent people as its no ones fault that im pissed, you taught me to learn to care for everyone around not only myself, you also gave me sefl confidence. If not for that, i would still be hiding away from cameras like in sec 1. Haha. You guys showed me the power of friendship. Sorry for the times i made you guys feel like hanging me on the flagpole and throw rocks at me. Quote unquote constance ' People usually say secondary school days are the best days of your lives' I dont doubt that anymore, cause you guys made my secondary school life an awesome one. Im glad i didnt switch to I_ or stayed in S_. If not i wouldnt meet awesome people like you guys. When we a lelave crescent to our seperate schools, i swear im gonna miss you guys like hell. Im not a person who is good at words or have a wide range of vocabulary, but all I want to emphasise is

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING & I LOVE YOU GUYS!

It sounds mushy but who cares? No one will understand it. For example my sis who insist this is nonsense..

Im gonna miss
`toon jia saying SHE GOT CHASED BY THE DOG while sticking checkpoints,
`constance molesting people and eating people's tofu and her weird and hilarious actions,
`shiyu for always be the ah beng and her unglamness that never fails to make the headlines, `ziying for taking care of bravo and offers helping hand for orienteering,
`wendy for being the part's nerd and always lending a listening ear
`nita for being my wife, and awesome sightseeing and hearing me whine about C
`diyana for being my m-ake partner, never ending stories, sightseeing, and waking up in the middle of the night during camps and wonder what we were doing so close to each other, and listen to me whine
`fadilah for being the maria and cleaning the house,
`nadhirah for her 4th finger sign and silly yet funny antics and her size of boobs being 2 132 double decked size big,
`ryhan, for being a great partner and her boils that gathered everyone's help to DO THINGS to it in the canteen,
`su for her funny actions and patience in teaching me dance steps,
`gracia for her tasty brownies and alwyas welcoming us to her house and being the part's pig,
`venus for sharing verses with me, and encouraging me whenever i am down and always saving the sicly cadets and
`waihan, for being the part's fish, and her silly questions and lame jokes and our drowning incident at sentosa.

Haha its by the latest nominal row order! I can still remember k! Haha, thanks for always being there for me for everything and hearing me whine, nag, being silly and hear my constant change of "crushes". I love X infinity you guys(: I do hope we will still say and wave hi to each other during school and meet up more often!

Dear Bravo08, (i dont know if you would read this but aiyah whatever la)

geez, how time flies.Thank you for being such wonderful cadets, and trust me I can never ask for more. You guys have been a lovable bunch of kids and you all are always so willing to learn and cooperative. Im glad I didnt IMMIGRATE TO AUSTRALIA if not i wouldnt have spent my time with you guys fruitfully. Its okay if I lost my voice, cause it is part of my duty. Sorry if i have not been the sweetest or gentle-est ncos of done the dream things you guys listed out that you wanted to do like tug-o-war or whatever. And sorry if at times i made you guys want to strangle me. Now you guys are on your way to be CHARLIE09 and specialists to be. Treasure and love your new pair of ncos,I have faith in them to push you guys up to a better and new level.

Just remember no matter how tought things get, its always because of a challenge that makes the success at the end give you a great sense of exhilaration of victory.

DELTA AND BRAVO,

thanks to every single one of you, it was because of you that kept me from falling all these while. You guys always make me smile.Especially delta, cause when i know im down, i always have you guys to count on, same rules apply, if you need help or need to whine, im not the best person, but can just leave me a msg or ring me. Speically for delta, i will try my best to be 24/7 standby haha Had an awesome time at the chalet. Thank you specs! The memory lane, presents, early morn warm ups, games, food, everything was great! Kudos to all of you for the chalet.May you guys bring crescent ncc to greater heights!

EVER READY TO OVERCOME, DELTA!

ALL THE BEST SPECS!(:

THANK YOU BRAVO(:

2008-07-05T22:23:00.002+08:00

I've got so much to say but i shall post another day? Maybe tomorrow after a good night's rest tonight.

I never thought I'd miss them so much but when its time to go, its time to go. All the best to the new n__s.

2008-07-01T21:33:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NCC DAY :D

Chinese oral tomorrow!!! Im damn scared but I still do hope I can suddenly have the ability to speak really well in chinese and have good content tomorrow. A china scholar in me! Haha Shall go practice later. I must really stop overspending, Im officially broke. Bought things at popular just now till only left 10cents in my wallet. Am I pathetic or pathetic? :( Save save saveeee Anyway my vivi came today!!(: Im so excited to try it out! Although vivi is not very good but im still keen on trying it!!! (:

Coincidentally oral clashes with her birthday tomorrow. Just hope I dont think too much and concentrate well for oral. 3 more days. And I certainly will miss everything. Especially D for Delta08.

I want to kill the stupid guy who set the rule for putting _ on the _. It made me chip my nails!!! >:@ its so difficult to get it through and only after 15 mins i managed to get it through. 15mins for that thing!!! :(

a.I dont understand why things has to be like that. By doing this arent both sides quits? Why bring it to this stage?
b.No one ever has time for _. Thanks alot man. No encouragement NO NOTHING from YOU. In addition, I bet he doesnt even know tmr's my oral. Sometimes I wonder what the diff between home and outside. The luxury of everthing? BULLSHIT.

I fucking hate this now. Pardon me please.

2008-07-01T17:22:00.003+08:00

URGHH _ IS SO IRRITATING >: @ Hateyouuuuu >:(

2008-06-30T23:39:00.001+08:00

Ok so now the skin's changed(: Oh wells but no tb cause the other tb looked super weird in this skin and this skin is so gay! So pink! Why cant it be purple? Oh wells :\ Anyway i had a weird dream. I msged SOMEONE saying
: Eh you coming over for dinner tonight?
WEIRD RIGHT?! Ok theres elephant glue stuck on my hand again wth :\ I shall sleep now byee

2008-06-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

IM DOOMED. IM DOOMED. IM DOOMEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!
Prelims is REALLY coming, not just a sayinlg anymore. Im kinda frantic now!!! I dont know what to say and I feel like just spewing out vuglarities at random people but thats just so super rude. I dont know I dont know I dont knowwwww AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Chinese orals on wed. I HOPE I DO WELL!!! I WANT AND NEED AND WILL GET MY A1!!!! I should really really start studying but so far I've only said but done nothing! Everyones studying and there am I skipping tuition twice. I WANNA KILL MYSELFFFFFFFFFFFFF.
FFF. I feel like smashing the comp and never to see it till os are over. But i cant ACKKKKK!

2008-06-29T14:45:00.003+08:00

If I take damn long to reply or dont answer your calls dont blame me cause Im currently using a lao pokai phone >: ( The stupid phone decided to die on me during school period. I mean of all times it spoils during school period! I where got time go fix?! Stupid phone. And this stupid phone cant receive mms and the other party will be unable to hear what i say cause the microphone thingy in the phone is spoilt. GAHGAHGAH
I need determination and perserverance!!!!

countdown, six.

tag replies;
sophie- Haha Im ogay(: thanks:D you need help tell me too k?:D AND I WANT TO SEE SPARKYYYYY!!!!!
anne- HAHA YESSS I KNOWW! i cant reply tags nowadays cause it keeps directing me to other pages >: @ haha
cynthia - haha aint anne always out of her mind? opps haha jk!
mavis- HELLO MAVIS!(:

2008-06-25T22:51:00.002+08:00

I told you your existence in the house doesnt friggin matter. You are as lifeless and as feelingless as stone. I have absolutly no idea why the hell do i care about you so much. When I dont even think you do care as much as I do. So tell me why?
I dont even know why I cried in my sleep for you.

2008-06-20T22:56:00.003+08:00

You were here just yesterday

Slight turn of the head

Eyes down when you said

I guess I need my life to change

Seems like something's just aren't the same

What could I say?

I had a weird dream of you just now, but at least you talked to me. I miss you. Watched some shows just now, and those motherly figures reminded me of you. I guess I was a big idiot to not cherish you.
Shes not at home today, however her presence now will not make any difference cause I promised not to burden her anymore. As for him, hes been away for quite a while now. Im looking forward to the 5th cause he' ll be home. I just hope the house wont feel so empty anymore.
School's starting in 2 days. What have I done for the past one month? Nothing. So much so for being hardworking. I bet shes either fuming up there or being terribly upset at me. I guess it must be that monthly thing that is making me feel like that again.

2008-06-18T22:59:00.002+08:00

sis: I bought you something
me: *BEAMS REALLY??? WHAT WHAT WHAT?
sis: *takes out a plastic bag, bought this for you cause i bought it for part of my friend's bdae gift
me: *ohhh thinks it should be something nice
sis: *takes out a packet of chocolate digestive biscuits, nah
me: huh?! this is my bdae present?
sis: ya im serious...

my sis is super generous man :\ HAHA but i still love her hehehe
ANYWAY TODAY WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEE!!!(: pictures another day when bra sends them overrr. Almost lost my life in the sea :\ Well i need to learn swimming properly next time :\ sheesh dinner at vivo rooftop. dare or dare, had to take a photo with a stranger, THIS PERSON REJECTED MEEE :( SOBSOB oh wells haha Other than the rain which totally spoiled my plan of tanning, It was supersuper fun today(: Wish everyday would be like today, but its kinda impossible... URGHHH i need to get tanned, im like a white paper now :(
Oh wells back to reality, Im gonna self ground,and i hope it works or i will cry. :( Please motivate me to study k friends?:D haha

2008-06-16T00:13:00.003+08:00

Im feeing super guilty now. I only did emath and nothing else. I totally ought to be shot dead a hundred times. Whatever happened to 'Oh! I promise im gonna study hard after this! I promise to not gonna be so last min anymore!!!',' Ok i shall watch the tv only for one hour'. Counting all the promises i broke, and the number of days before prelims and os, I seriously feel i should be given a tight slap to wake me up.... Shucks condemnation!!

Talking bout dad, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! Its been hard on you daddy!(: I LOVE YOU! Thanks for being so patient with me and always standing up for me(: I feel so blessed to have you! Mua mua mua(:

Cel's party was AWESOMEEE! hahaha sang till our voices and karaoke machine went haywire and ate till we became balls and rolled around! No la joking, it only applies to me HAHAHA Stayed over on fri to help out then sat night was cloupe sleepoverrr!(: Although I was fast asleep for almost the whole night hehehe Nitendo wii and macs for a great sun morn start. Then left. Thanks cel for the great partayee(: The potato salad finalia made and the ngoh hiang was so niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeee *drools

Had a terrible dream on thurs night. I saw her in my dreams but it wasnt a good one. Although the dream was kinda ridiculous but then it made me almost _ in my sleep. woke up with my heart beating like crazy. I think Im thinking too much nowadays..

2008-06-11T22:47:00.001+08:00

OMG!!! IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF!!!! MY DEAR TV HAS DECIDED TO SHOW ME ONLY A BLUE SCREEN!!! URGHHH!
to make things better, cause of some circumstances, I WILL NOT HAVE TV FOR ONE MONTH. WTH!
TV= MYLIFE HOW CAN THEY DO THIS TO ME!!! :(

2008-06-05T23:53:00.003+08:00

Lit seminar today was pretty good, definitely MUCH better that tuesday's! On my way back from the ntuc centre thingy along the raffles place underground link thingy, I met this person who ought to be slapped upside down. Ok I know who am I to say she have to be slapped but let me tell you what happened k?
So We were helping this wheelchair bound old man, so we push push push him to the shop he needed to go. So me being a little clumsy and blind ACCIDENTALLY hit the heel of this person, please also take note the fact that I dont go around pushing people's wheelchair everyday so I kinda lack experience yknow? Ok I dont blame the person for saying its pain BUT HELLO! The pitiful old man said sorry dont know how many times, I apologized dont knwo how many times too she still had to show black face and complain to the poor old man very pain.
OK LET ME TELL YOU WHY IM PISSED
1. The pitiful old man already has a hard time moving around as he is wheelchair bound, accidentally hit you only and please remember HE APOLOGIZED cmon! So petty for what! Urgh! You can walk normally BUT HE CANT. By showing that disgusting, detestable black face of yours doesnt make him feel better but in fact makes him feel worse! WHATS WRONG WITH YOU!! *strangles
2. You have 2 kids with you, cmon at least say a nvm to the man. I mean I dont mind you scolding me, but hello?!?! Take pity on the poor old man can anot? Be a good role model to your kids can? URGHH

I hate inconsiderate people who only think about themselves, they ought to be shot dead >: @
Ok sorry for being so &%$#$%&*%$#$%%$#$%$. I just cannot stand her just now >:@

2008-06-03T00:02:00.002+08:00

Didnt regret taking bus to school today cause I saw something that brightened up my morning before the start of lessons! Celine saw what I saw too hahahaha I want to kill myself :\ Wasted like 6 polaroids films just to firgure out how to use the freaking thing and I think that im a camera idiot :\ Anyone wanna teach? Haha
I need a break!!! :\ Oh wells saying here wont help either :\
Saw zorro before the seminar at grassroots club!!!! So long never see! Sighn i miss _! :( Oh wells
broken telephone?

2008-05-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

FINALLY CHINESE OS ARE O-V-E-R! Ok maybe just paper 1 and 2. I think Im a total loser, and my sister thinks Im weird. Felt like vomiting in the morning and I had difficutly breathing and felt as if my windpipe shrunk ten sizes smaller! Was damn nervous! But aiya whats done is done! I JUST HOPE I GET MY A1!!!! A1 A1 PLEASE BE MINEEEEEEE!
went out, couldnt find my strappy havas + didnt spend money on clothes = A VERY VERY SAD ME! :( I should stop spending so much moolah on useless food and buy more realistic stuff like clothes bags and shoes :\ BAHHH ok im tired and I want to sleep now. School tomorrow, hope it would pass fast :X

2008-05-17T22:40:00.002+08:00

There's this irritating lizard in my house. Its giving me the creeps! I hope aunty catches is ASAP. ,if not I cant sleep peacefully :( The results are back. I refuse to give any comments. Besides I only have 2 choices. 1- Screw up my life. 2- Buck up. Of course I choose the later. But then again I NEED MOTIVATION! I should really start studying cause everyone is like getting As and there when people are studying IM SLEEPING! And I dont really wanna be a bad influence, so I think I need to study hard soon. Maybe starting next week onwards? Chinese Os in 8 days. Im very scared. Very very scared.
Meetup with pri sch friends on friday evening. Not bad(: HAPPY BRITHDAY MAY HUI!(: haha Pictures later when hazel and rachel upload them to their comps haha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO STEF TOO!(:

1. I cant wait for a certain day which is coming soon(::
2. I might start not caring as much as I should/was as Im starting to learn how to prioritise
3. Im wondering how are you doing? I hope you're doing fine though(:

2008-05-15T22:21:00.000+08:00

I.AM.VERY.SAD.

2008-05-11T20:52:00.005+08:00

Friday;

learning journey in the morning. FUNFUNFUN(: Ok I'd be lying if I said the journey was fun, it was the COMPANY that was fun(: Cloupe cloupe cloupeeeee!:D Haha Took photos blah blah. School invasion tour after that. HOTHOTHOT :OOO hahahahahaha SOO came down. Quite cool(: Hope we'd have more of these stuff haha

Went to mpr. Practiced and practiced. Got damn stressed. Dont know how to do some moves properly. Bathed. Changed. Im such an embarassment, I dont even know how to do make up -.- HAHAHAHA Lucky gracia, su and hazel helped(: Thank youuuuuuu :D Then Went to gallery watch abit before our turn. X's performance was smokinggg(: Met cloupe(: for a while. Intermission, OUR TURN!!!!

Got very scared. Prayed hard that i wont forget any steps. In a few minutes everything was over. We fufilled our 'join crezawrds' dream after 3 years(: Haha then went to support nazeera's , denise & melissa's, AND SUUUUUUUUU's performance. Danced, jumped screamed like mad. Got damn high. Prize giving!!! Shook jeanette aws' hand!!!! :D Shes so pretty!!!! And slim!!! :OOO Haha

Thanks to 1.CLOUPE(:, for the flowers and hugs and SUPPORT:D AND all who came to support!(: Mua Mua Mua (:

To AVE D'LARIO:

Thanks for tolerating my bad dancing skills. And Thanks for being so patient with me all these practices. We did it!!!(: After 3 years, our dream of crezawards came true!!Thanks to su, bra and ry to teach me the steps. Thanks to su to mix the songs. Thanks to bra for the make-up. Thanks to everysingle one of AVE D'LARIO Love you guysssssss:D MUA MUA MUA:D

SAT;

Rot at home. Woke up at 10, had tuition, watched teevee. Then slept from 4-7pm -.- THEN received a wonderful call from celine! Can finally leave the house HAHA Went to vivo, bought her cake making stuff, ate dinner. Then went home. Mel came to stay over(:

Today;

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUMMY!(: I LOVE YOU:D gg out alone today wasnt that bad.Though i almst got lost when gettin to that place. Walked alot! Got so tired i decided to cab out of that place. haha Went to visit her. Sigh, one year seemed to be passing so fast. This june will be just nice one year. I miss you. My mum is the best person on earth(: I love X infinity her(:

cloupeeee(:

sir stamford's replicas haha

tourists?

randommmm

Partners!(:

Waiting..

WE SHOOK JEANETTE AW'S HANDS! SHES SO PRETTY!!!

AVE D'LARIO FOR LIFE(:

2008-05-07T21:33:00.002+08:00

I have the sudden urge to go to the airport to study and do amath -.- I must be out of my mind. Theres so many things I want to do! :(
1. Watch movies
2. GO TANNING (Im like a bai zhan ji(white chicken) now -.- )
3. Go airport study
HAHA. Anyway Im kinda expecting my results to be like crap. And the paper Im most confident in is amath paper 2 which i lost the least marks over :\ Watching CJ7 now, I know its kinda lame but its quite interesting though. Haha. Back to school tomorrow again : I want to sleep soon, gdnight!
2more days :o

2008-04-25T21:54:00.002+08:00

English paper today was super screwed!!! BAHHH Didnt plan my time properly and spent one hour on the stupid letter and rush the composition >:@ While i was handing in something shocked me. To my horror I found out I started writing my story about this girl but ended it with the last two paragraphs saying I.... I.... and MORE I...!!! >: @ Bahhhh Oh wells shall be more careful next time :\ Night study was ok... Spent one hour doing 4 qns HAHA What the ? Oh wells. Ok I shall get my ass to study now. And I really do hope I dont sleep again. I feel like a pig. I sleep too much :\ But I love sleeping! When Im sad I sleep, when Im happy I sleep -.-
i dont know what to do, tell me how please

2008-04-20T21:12:00.003+08:00

what a beautiful chocolate man hehehehehehe (if you watched white chicks you should know haha)
Had 4 hours of chem today and my mind literally went numb. I couldnt think straight for a while. Sheesh. Watched white chicks during dinner. ITS SO AWESOM! MY FAVOURITE SHOW :D haha Felt like vomitting though, cause some parts were so disgusting. Haha. Gosh my irritating aunt's here .I feel like my womb's gonna drop out and I think Im going to have cramps soon. It always happen. Gwarrh. Talking about wombs, theres bio test tomorrow and I havent studied Im so dead. Im ok with cell division but guess whats the other tested chapter? Sexual reproduction in humans -.- I have a hard time studying that man. eeek
should i?

2008-04-19T11:06:00.003+08:00

So I guess this is it. Time for me to concentrate on my studies.

Mids in 5 days, so what have I done? NOTHING. WTH and I totally screwed up my chinese oral yesterday. Went off topic, how stupid can I get. My first step to A1 for chinese prelims is kinda screwed up.Sooooo I better buck up for paper 1 and 2. Bahhhh

Cut alot of corners since thurs. tsktsk! >: ( Ok bye and good luck for mids!(:

edit;
tag reply
pearly : awwww :( its ok la i will still be around in school! Dont miss me! HAHAHA joking enjoy your trip though!(:

chem tuition was quite productive. I hope it will be more productive. I hate 61 it comes so slowly and it was so crowded just now i wanted to bite their heads off.
1. The 2 words 'excuse me' is created for a reason -.- Its not that i dont want to move, I have NO place to move, so dont keep pushing me URGHHH
2. The bus is so crowded, so please DONT TALK SO LOUDLY ON YOUR PHONE -.- it gets irritating and your call lasted my WHOLE trip what the?!?!?!
3. If you dont want to lose your balance DONT USE YOUR PHONE -.- Please la, you use your phone then lose balance, drop your things, make noise, whats wrong with you? It not like the person's gonna die if you reply a few mins late right -.-
GRAWRRR. I said my piece so i shall stop being a complain queen. Blah
i will miss you :(

2008-04-13T22:15:00.002+08:00

I am gifted talk really helped. It made me reflect alot and I've learnt alot of things. I felt like I was away from the world. Being distant from so many people. The most memorable and important thing I've learnt is how to be a human. Yes I know some of you will laugh, what the hell am I talking about right?

Leroy shared something about class A,B and C and he told us his experience when he was having this programme at MINDS.
Leroy:What's your greatest dream?
One of the boys : To be normal like you.
That situation struck me. Leroy was saying stuff about them, for example being a macdonald's cashier can make them proud. The pride and honour they have in them is undescribable. Then it made me think, I have all four limbs, almost everything is perfect. Why complain? Before the story he made up list out all the problems we had.And he filled a BIG sheet of paper filled with our problems. But after saying that story, the problems we listed out were considered mediocre to the problems these kids meet with everyday. Then came the video about the oprah winferey show. About this girl called jacqi. After an accident, she was disfigured to a point where she was irrecognisable and have to go through alot of surgeries although she went for 50 over already. She even has problems wearing clothes, brushing teeth. But she still lives on strong.
Then who am I to complain? Tired? PMS? Difficulty concentrating? Fat? What the hell am I thinking? Out there, people have difficulty doing what normal people can do an yet Im being a total loser complaining how bad life can be when Im perfectly normal. Why complain? I dont even have to work to support the family when alot of kids out there need to. I cant complain my parents dont understand me. In fact Im blessed to have them. Other peoples' dad are so strict and dont show their feelings but my dad is different. He shows his love to me and i appreciate that alot. My mum used to make breakfast for me, and used to coax me to go to school. And After the course I realised many more other things, which make me think why take self-pity and use it as an excuse when others are suffereing more than me. Who am I to complain?

I want to make my dad proud of me. And although shes not here, I know shes up there watching me. I want to get good results and bring my cert proudly to her and show her. I want to make up for every wrong thing I've done. I dont want to waste anymore time as when I looked back I have wasted almost 3 years, living without an aim. Just getting pass days for the sake of it. I dont want to cut corners anymore. I want to change. I must change. I will change.

Please be a good friend and help me along. Whether in teaching me, helping me in my studies or scolding me if i distract myself, please help me! Thank you in advance(:
Thanks to the trainers for the wonderful 36hours too(:

You might laugh but whatever.
6A1S, 2A2s, VJC, IM COMING!

2008-04-08T20:51:00.003+08:00

Oh wells mids in 16 days. Have you started studying?

All the best for mids, try your best!(:

2008-04-06T14:17:00.004+08:00

Went to buy new assesment books with wendy yesterday. And i swear our legs could have died! Got out of city hall mrt and after a long time of walking wrong directions and asking people, we finally found our way to bras basah complex Haha. Was expecting to buy like bags of stuff but ended up buying 4 books and a few stationaries. The popular there is like damn big! So big that it gave us a headache after we left the place. Its like 5 storeys :\ Went ps to eat ajisen for dinner. And i think it will be a while before i eat there again. It was damn filling!
Went to walk around spotlight, and I think that place is so amazing and interesting :D Then went to BEST to see camras (: I am so pissed with myself. Why in the world did i get that stupid cam!!! >: @ I want this cybershot one which is like so cool! And the design is very pretty too(: They have PINK, WHITE BLACK and disgusting silver. Haha it has face detectiona and smile shutter too(: THe pics are quite clear too(: Hehe I hope I can get it. Anyone want to sponser? Very CHEAP, $499 only(: Haha
Then we went to eat hokkaido ice cream(: The cone one looked SUPER CUTEEEEE! Its like a triangle on top of a cone. Ok maybe i sound like a stupid mountain tortise but whatever la! But bought the cup one in the end, cause i know i will definitly throw away some of the ice cream if i took the cone one cause definitly cannot finish Haha. Went to sit outside ps as our legs were dying. Talked alot then left at 10 plus.
I have so much to learn from wendy!!! And her idol. Haha I must also learn to appreciate things and people around me and not to be seflish. Somehow or rather, im quite blessed to have certain people in my life. If not i think my life would have been a wreck.

Mids in 18 days. O_O

2008-04-01T22:29:00.002+08:00

How much I dont want to say this, I have been sucha bitch these few days. Especially towards myself :\
IM NOT EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE HERE. WTH :\ AND I DID NOT RESIST THE TEMPTATION OF THIS STUPID COMPUTER >:( And Im a failure cause of all the revision i did in amath, i did nothing by myself, its all done with the help of my great and smart sister who is asleep right now, which means theres no point of me doing now cause i'd probably get stuck at the first question i try -.-

Luckily everything went smoothly for the flag thingy today. I was so scared to be the one remembered as ''OH THE GIRL WHO GOT HER HEAD STUCK AND COVERED WITH THE FLAG HAHAHA!'' Thank god.

SS and amath test tmr, im not even halfway through it and I want to sleep already. The following weeks will even be EVEN MORE busier and stressful. I need so much help, whether in my studies or my mental state. I hope i can pull through this period. My eye bags are getting so big you can store a dozen of durians in. Ok dont ask me why durians, it just came into my mind.

When mids are breathing down your neck, its so hard to cope. Dang.

2008-03-30T19:32:00.003+08:00

Had an awesome saturday night(:

Started off with chem in the morn... THEN went to ac funfair with sophie, the atmosphere wasnt hyped up at all and the music that was blasting was just plain weird :\ So went to fareast to eat lunch with nat,khalie,anchal,nikki,aida,GRACE,nadia,sophie,aqilah at ramen 10, and i swear i will NEVER go back there. 2 simple reasons, 1, the service suck -.- and 2, the food is not very nice :\ AJISEN IS MUCH BETTER :D then went back to the funfair with aida,nikki and anchal to spend the 50 over dollars worth of coupons -.- Played this spongebob thing, and i think they have omething against me! My bangs got wet and screwed :\ Lucky thing is that there was the WONDERFUL sun whiched helped me dry it :D hehe then rushed back to town to meet sophie to buy ___.

To our amazement, celine and annabel both bought a dress and changed into it on the spot so they look like twins! HAHA Ok then went to wheelock. Whiel some of them went to borders, some of us camwhored outside. Haha. Then went to fish & co for dinner with GRACE. Queued for 123456789 years before we got our seats. Hugged, said our goodbyes then left for more camwhoring. Haha reached home and slept.

O_O

The TWINS haha

EMO

Part of the cloupe

I love cloupe<3

Side track abit;

1. Soon enough dearies(: Just bear a while more. Then it'd be JOY TO THE WORLD, for you and for me :D

2. I am saddened by my bangs cause i still think i kinda look weird :( dont you think so? I want my slanted fringe back :(

2008-03-24T21:06:00.002+08:00

I have the sudden urge to blog, so i shall make it a fast one.

Firstly, im pissed :\ I didnt want to write about it but you guys wanted. I didnt want to remember that incident but you guys insisted on me writting. Ok la so i write, but i told in advance i couldnt remember much. So i wrote based on how much i can remember. Then now although you tell me a long story explaining it is closed, ok with me, but hello you all say you dont doubt me, but you all dont believe what i wrote. what the nut? urgh. what the nut is wrong with you all? -.-?!?!? Its ok that that incident happen,although you all say its not very reliable and dont doubt me, but your actions and words tells me so. And one thing, I so totally hate peopel doubting me. Wth.

Sometimes i really wonder why do i care and i dont want to care anymore but then again i cant.URGHHH

Saw this mother bring food for her daughter in school to eat just now. I mean although its like secondary school already, so old already still have mum to bring food. But i mean that is so heartwarming especially when it was raining so heavily. I miss you, i really do.

Learnt about forgiveness in church last sunday. I can promise to forgive everyone, but not myself.

Ok enough of the sad and angry part. I realised alot of people cut hair this easter holiday! :OOOOOO Nat, michelle, constance cut bangs too :O cool or cool. HAHA Walking under the rain today was good. Refreshing. shucks six weeks to mids, and 8 weeks to O lvl mother tongue. AHHHH!

Im feeling sleepy now,but i gotta rush out 5 storylines. Oh wells, i hope i will turn over a new leaf and change for the better. I shall do it now, without distractions :X HAHA

2008-03-21T18:10:00.002+08:00

Hohoho went to cut hair with my sister just now. And now we've got a sister haircut. Ok I know it might sound ridiculous to you but WE'VE GOT BANGS haha might take a lil time to get used to my hair :X And it needs damn high maintenance :\ Wash, comb, dry -.- haha but i bet i wont do it unless i go out haha. You most prob wont see me in sch with bangs cause i will pin it up to study(: Haha

Sports carn yesterday. The rain was a total spoiler -.- I was so looking forward to the mascot song and dance! :\ But oh wells, lost my voice yesterday, could only shout low hahaha anyway THANKS FOR THOSE WHO HELPED OUT CURIE IN SPORTS CARN :D whether house comm member or not, thanks for your help :D And the house members for your cooperation :D

Oh wells i shall go do my lit essay now. :X byeee

2008-03-09T21:16:00.002+08:00

''Study camp'' at celine's was FUN :D but about the study part i only studied for 2-3 hours :X The rest of the time was spent playing with teddy, chatting, laughing and PLAYING WII!!!! OMGOSH! damn cool! played cooking mama and it was damn funny! (X Although it was fun, it was tiring cause we had to keep shaking the control haha Its DAMN COOL!!! Thats the best thing that i did last night!(X Now i dont feel like getting a psp already. I confirm will get addicted HAHA Oh wells yesterday was awesome!(:
Went to reccee place with wendy in the afternoon and when we reached there, to our horror, I PRINTED THE WRONG MAP! :O So we improvised and drew out map as we walked. Are we good or good? HAHA
School tmr, blah! I want to watch the first rule! Although i know i will scream like hell and get freaked out but it seems interesting!!!! (X

Seeing K tmr Early in the morning! And i havent started her hw. Diediedie, i shall go do now, BYE!

2008-03-07T22:34:00.002+08:00

Theres a million reasons why its like that.

Holidays next week!!! Haha but everyday go back school, then have to stay back later than usual. I really wonder why they call it holidays when its worst than normal school days. Didnt feel like i studied today. Have been damn sleepy in class. *shakes head Oh wells(: Have to wake up damn friggin early to go school tmr.,then more reccee-ing. I WANT A PSP!!!! but then i will easily get distracted! I cant even bring myself away from the tv, what more a psp? *Shakes head

`.Useless emails and messages. Will things get better?
`.Should i approach her, and tell her i want to back out my _? Hmmm will parents inteference help too? Cause i seriously think some others can do a wayyyy better job. And of course with people doubting my abilities, i think some people deserve it more.
`.Forward forward forwardddd. Free one! :O

enough of the angry/disturbing/dont know what post.

I miss you alot. Some people wont understand. And i guess that includes everyone.

2008-03-05T20:57:00.002+08:00

I think im crazy, i want to break the neck of alot of people :o Pardon my weirdness, but im really &%$#$%&*&%$#$%& Today is a bad day >: @

1.Dear _, i know we last la, but dont need to suan right? :\
2. Dear _, you biased person, you know what you did. If you are still brooding over that incident that happened recently, get a life. Its settled already what, if you want to continuing treating us like that so be it, i dont give a effing damn anymore. I know i have no right to say this but please la your biasedness is so obvious, even the blind can see! URGH!!!!
3. Dear _, stop giving me problems can?
4.How many times will the weather forecast be wrong?
5. I regret not writting more details , if i it will be like that, i should have included MUCH MORE DETAILS >: @
6. I think we are very fragile, alot of people around me recently got admitted to the hospital.
7. I really cant wait, trust me, im more impatient than anyone else in the world.
8. I hate _, i really do.
9. Do i look like an idiot to you that i dont know how to differentiate it? -.-
10. I dread_, i really do.

2008-03-04T22:39:00.002+08:00

Monday
first time in my ENTIRE life. First time and it was such a romantic atmosphere, started raining in the middle of it. of course the resutls were obvious. Sucha letdown, a failure hc. sorry! :( back to school, more running, dog and bone<3, day ended not bad (: Butt hurts, and i dont know why
today
a failure again, never study much *shakes head i think i should really paste a BIG notice on the tv that says DONT TOUCH IT OR DIE, or maybe i should just ask dad to plug it off :\

1.Why did you have to trigger the urge to talk back in me? We could've just let things continues this way for a few more months and we are done. I chose to shut about it, but i guess if you want it this way, im ok with it.
2. I am very scared, we are lagging so much behind. I hope everything will be fine, im starting to think im the lousiest hc ever. Sucks man
3. I want to strangle some people, ok maybe kill
4. i want to go to the IT fair and get alot of things
5. I think im a very bad sec 4, im not really studying, im stressed but i dont know why -.-
6. I think im really weird
7. I REALLY REALLY WANT TO KILL SOME PEOPLE URGH

2008-03-01T23:21:00.002+08:00

Friday;
school was ok, results were shit :\ But kinda expected huh, too much tv does you no good *shakes head Oh wells, just have to buck up!(: JYJY! Recess was F-U-N!:D Ainslee and nadia taught me soulja boy dance :D hehe YUH~~~~~~~~~~~~~ *starts dancing, its so funny! (X After school went suntec, ate pizza hut and we spent like gazillion hours there!!! Ate till 4.30pm, got a shock on how fast time flew, became determined to go straight to career seminar, AND OBVIOUSLY we failed -.- Stopped at quite a few shops to see see then only managed to reach the seminar thingy at 5 plus -.- Haha, went for the consultation thingy, quite useful. The went to rebeccas house. HER HOUSE IS AMAZINGG!!! DAMN HUGE! But the only sad thing is have to walk ALOT! Haha thats the problem with big houses i guess (X Thanks for everything rebecca :D
sat;
Tuition till i wanna diee. First chinese than math :\ had a short nap then woke up ate dinner WATCH TV(AGAIN), wait but thats a MUST WATCH! hehe THEN baked my cookies!!!:D HEHE had a hard time making it into their shapes properly and some of my bears look like human! and im hearbroken as my sis mistook my rhinos as COWS :\ BUT it taste quite good la huh haha just that the second batch was a lil too hard :X Oh wells i thing off my to do list :D gotta wake up tmr morn to reccee. THANKS ZIYING AND WENDY IN ADVANCE(: *bows surprise for you both tmr :D HEHE pictures next time, lazy to transfer haha

anne; haha i dont know?? haha BUT L IS THE NEW THING NOW :O
sophie;NOOOO I STILL LIKE L!!! dont steal my husband! HAHA

2008-02-26T22:14:00.003+08:00

JOY TO THE WORLD COMMON TESTS ARE O-V-E-R!!! :OOOOOO
chinese;
dont know what the hell it was saying, fell asleep twice -.-
chem;
*shakes head
amath;
*shakes head vigorously, couldnt think at all so i had to time to stare out the door for inspirations, other levels were being so noisy :\ can scream somemore grrrr so irritating la especially when you sit next to the door >: @
sports heat;
okok, impromtu 1min of fame is embarassing. :\ especially when your performance is so stupid -.- haha I LOVE HYEON'S AND WAI HAN'S ONE:D V.V.V.V.V.V..V NICEEEEEE :D haha overall should be ok, i guess, i hope, i pray :X Good job everyone(:
Outing with wai han;
FUN(: I finally had my shih-lin chicken :OOOOOOOOOOOO hehe then watchs L change the world. DAMN NICEEEEEEEEE Hes like damn HOT AND CUTEEEE (X Tutor called during the movie, scared me i thought today had tuition la! Turned out to be cause of something else -.-
Before the movie was this advertisement about a movie called di yi jie/ji forgot, scary show. Damn freaky BUT I WANNA WATCH!!! :D
Gahhhh c.t over = lessons and cca resume. Boring life all over again. Cant wait for sun!(: Hope it will be a successful outing :D i shall bake my cookies soon, hope it wont turn out bad :X

edit;
forgot to do this haha
a. list seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.b. tag seven people to do the same.c. do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it".

1. i like my food shaped nicely on my spoon before i eat
2.i like to watch hong kong tv seriasl, im a tv addict :
3. i like to bake/cook but its not very nice :
4.i want a psp/nitendo ds, give me one and i will love you to death (please throw in some games, i will love you even more :D)
5.i hate it when people ask rhetorical questions when im busy
6. I am a violent creature :
7. I used to spell crocodiles and krockodiles when i was young -.-

b. any takers?

tag replies
nadia; how i wish to continue but i dont know how to sing the rest!!! :X Haha
vic-HAHA you can have him already, now I WANT L :O haha

2008-02-24T20:52:00.002+08:00

TODAY IS AN UNPRODUCTIVE DAY. I SHOULD GO KILL MYSELF. THE STUPID TV IS SO ADDICTIVE. URGHHH BUT THE 7PM SHOW IS NICE SO GO WATCH :D hehe WAIT back to topic i still want to kill myself, totally no self control man *shakes head.Ok i shall go make up to myself now. Bye now!
khaliesah- THANKS!(: JYJY TOO!!!(:L

I am so pissed. Dont people understand english? Or is it the font aint big enough. Urgh! Do they know how long i took to type that and edit here and there. Urgh. Tell me earlier la, last min really last minute eh.I mean i dont mind editing abit more but come on la at least understand our plight of taking out time during exam period to do this and you coming to just easy easy say cannot. URGH. thats it, i cant wait .... $%&*&%$#$%&%$#$%&%$#

2008-02-23T20:51:00.004+08:00

I COOKED SPAGHETTI TODAY! :O Got nagged the whole time by my sis saying she is going to die of hunger cause i was cooking and doing things too slowly. But not my fault what the garlic kept flying all over when chopping and the onion made me wanna cry! Haha but it was fun cooking(: Havent cooked for a very long time :o And i think i suck :\ Oh wells haha I CANT WAIT FOR C.Ts to be over !!! Then i will use my cookie cutters when i bake cookies :D Its quite cool! Got few shapes like hippo, elephant,flower,star heart and bear!!! :D so excited! Never use before hehehe Ok i am so guilty, literally slacked the whole day today :\ Slept, watched tv and read magazine. Whatever happened to studying? So now im going to study to make up to myself. Hoho.
study session with celine,sophie,cynthia and annabel yesterday(: Abit productive but i still prefered the chatting part hehe Very interesting topics HAHA and i still cant forget the part about the fo zhu(buddhist beads) as necklace part hahahahaha Well at least i studied a lil :D

Oh and i had a dream about her 2 days ago. She seemed happy and she hugged me!:D I miss her, ALOT. So treasure you loved ones now, or you'll seriously regret it. Dont end up like me, i have heaps of regrets and i dont know i just wanna kill myself sometimes. :\ Well i really really miss her :( Swollen eyes, guess why.

PLEASE BE A GOOD FRIEND AND MOTIVATE ME TO STUDY! :D
I WILL LOVE YOU :D HEH

tag replies;
nadia- WRONG WRONG WRONG! its ''YOU GET THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS...'' *starts clapping hands in the air wildly HAHA

2008-02-19T20:12:00.002+08:00

I HATE CRAMPS. ARGHH. Didnt get to sleep last night. Was rolling,crying and walking to the toilet almost the whole night. Couldnt sleep cause it was damn pain! :( Couldnt go school cause the pain still stuck to me like superglue. And till now im still visiting the toilet VERY oftenly. I think i used up alot of toilet roll already as i think i visited the toilet over 15times today >: @ But well at least i managed to finish weekend hw i owe mrs gek :X And study... ok fine stare at the bio book for a while and lasted through math tuition without dozing(: But im still in pain ARGHHHHHH I cant wait fot c.t to be over cause I WANT TO BAKE COOKIES :O Bought cookie cutters the other day but havent use yet, now its lying on the table tempting me to use it. :X Blahhh c.t on thurs. wish me luck!

I HATE THIS TIME OF THE MONTH >:( *grumbles

2008-02-18T22:04:00.003+08:00

Ok im not supposed to be here but i guess it wouldnt hurt much just typing a lil (X Well soccer today for pe. Im a total sucker for soccer.Cant do anything with the stupid black and white ball for nuts :\ I so totally hate soccer! >:@ Played a mini soccer game but ended up playing ''fence ball'' cause our ball kept going to the fence and everyone starts crowding around it and fight HAHA And our ball kept rolling to the sec 1s side and its ALOT of times :X
I LOVE PE. :D common test on thurs blah havent studied MUST GO STUDY NOW AND HOPEFULLY its not just say and not do HAHA cant wait for 26th then CT OVERR :D HOHOHO
school's getting more interesting by the day and i hope it stays this way(:
4S1'08 FOR LIFE :D

Edited;
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMOGMG!!!! I FINSIHED MY JIAN BAOS :OOOO im so happy HAHA finally! I almost went berserk doing them :X Well still gotta chiong the mock paper tmr morn and recess, cause apparently a smart ass like me forgot to bring it home to do!!!! *grumbles And my cramps are hurting real bad :\ Its making me all sleepy and frustrated GRAHHHHHHHHHHHH I hate this time of the month, so irritating, especially when common tests are nearing, it aint helping! >: @ i shall read a lil bio then go sleep :D

2008-02-16T21:27:00.004+08:00

Flagday;
Woke up damn early just to go alllll the wayyyyy to amk lib to collect the tins -.- Its like what the other line at yck :\ Started off not very well as the place was so market-y. BUT it got better:D And i can conclude that people in those places were MUCH MORE generous than other places. They gave coins like what one dollar and fifty cents. I mean its quite big cause usually people in other places give like what 1O cents or worst5? And some even gave all their coins! With like a dollar ++ :D Then went to this cafe thingy. Free food and drinks.The food not bad :D I like the guo tie hehehe (X Played UGLY UGLY UGLY! This really exciting card game (: Had alot of fun today. Fell asleep on the train dride from yck home. I bet i was damn unglam but who cares im really tired. Went home slept for a while then just before six tutor called to cancel on me, was quite :\ but whatever went back to sleep. Had the most satisfying nap (: 4 hours :D Woke up with a slight neckache :\ Haha. During that cafe event thingy, met many nice people. A guy in vjc too! I want to go there!!! (: The way he described seems so cool and fun. And best of all, ITS NOT AN ACADEMIC BASED SCHOOL!:O goodgoodgood!!!(:

friday;
school was okayy(: Surprisingly didnt feel tired during chem extra class :O Instead i found it VERY INTERESTING :D Haha as in i learnt some stuff i was supposed to know but didnt know :X Felt a little goon -.- And now i really wonder where was i in sec 3. Haha Emergency exercise was okay excpet that the sun was so hot! :( Had fun chatting on the field. Just like a picnis minus the food and nets to catch butterflies HAHA Total defence in the morning was ... Found out something :X Now i have to resew !!!!! 3rd time!!! Arghhh! I shall ask my maid to do it, since i suck at sewing HAHA

Thursday;
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! :D Thanks to all the lovelies for the chocs and flowers. Thanks to alpha2 for the balloon(: Wanted one the whole day was quite :( dont have but in the end have! :D Hehe _ was so angry that day too. What a joke that 3/4 of the class got chased out :X Felt a little bad BUT how to memorise so many! Blahh

OK....... Things to do after C.T:
1. Eat pizza :D
2. Cycling!!!
3. Watch movies
4. Go sim lim square get my stuff
5.study, study and study

I so totally need self-discipline :\ I want to go VJ!(: lets just see if i can make it first heh

tag replies
sheena; haha
annabel; thanks!:D
wanxuan ; haha after c.t?:D

2008-02-09T18:07:00.000+08:00

THIS FESTIVE SEASON IS PASSING TOO FAST! SCHOOL IN ANOTHER 2 DAYS *shakes head 1st day was B-O-R-I-N-G, went only one house in like what 3 hours? -.- Spent my day grazing at home. 2nd day was MUCH BETTER :D AT LEAST I WENT OUT for QUITE A WHILE. haha went to celine's house in the morning, went home, realtives came over, went out again for dinner. Had fun at my aunts house haha. Just now some of them came over (: funfunfun :D well i never had friends coming over for chinese new year before! Haha this year first time so very eggciting :D lost alot of money to durgga! :( But nevermind once in a life time hoho. Angbow collection was not bad this year :D heh heh AND MY HOUSE IS FULL OF FATS(FOOD) and sadly IM FALLING SICK! >: @ Block nose, flu and slight sore throat :\ My finger is getting better :D Thanks to my dad pulling HAHA.Read the papers just now, SO MANY NICE MOVIES!!! :(

I want to watch:
1. Sweeny Todd (but its m18 *grumbles)
2.P.S i love you
3. KUNGFU DUNK! (only because my husband jay chou is acting in it HAHA)
4. JUMPER
5. JUNO ( HAHA DURGGA (x )

BUT i need to study too! But yet i want to watch BADLY boohoohoo how now brown cow? :(
Anyone want to watch any? :D
*P.S im ditched by my dad and sis, and IM SUPERBOREDGAL@HOTMAIL.COM >:(

2008-02-04T20:49:00.001+08:00

TODAY IS A SUPER UNLUCKY DAY! Fractured my finger, ripped my skirt's zip and broke a test tube during lab class. Now my finger's all swollen and pudgy -.- Damn pain :( Had a hard time bathing and doing arm drills man :\ I think i must never get my adrenaline too high. Cause i was laughing so hysterically, run run run laugh laugh laugh scream scream scream snatch snatch snatch PIAKKK my finger fractured sobsob :( Guess i have to get over new year with a swollen finger >: ( Oh wells, plan to go to chinatown tommorow is thwarted. Thanks to english mock test man. Thanks :\ Im so pissed. The student handbook smells like a fish market with rotten fish and the i look SUPER screwed in the year book. Maybe what durgga said is true, ANEROXIA FOR LIFE! haha but thats IF i ever have the determination to stop eating. And and and I MUST SAVE MONEY! Dad just scolded for spending so much money *shakes head SAVE SAVE SAVE, I AM THE BEST! (chinese shop & save advertisement, sheng sheng sheng mama zui bang!) Haha ok anyway i planned something cool >:) Thats what i feel la but must have time to carry out the plan :\ Ok i shall go and .... now :D SURPRISE :DDDD

1.would you look me in the eyes and _.
2.RUBBISH -.-
3.I so wanna strangle you
4.I cant wait HOHO
5. I miss you

2008-02-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

I had the weirdest dream yesterday. But cant remember much, only remembered something about kayaking -.- Haha Went out with toon jia and annabel today, walked for 3hours + but yet cant find anything to buy. In the end only one necklace and 2 earrings. Im so hearbroken! Saw a pretty pair of flats but it was either too big or too small. Sobsob i wanna cry it was so pretty :( School tommorow *shakes head

I miss those times when you left little notes for me on my table. I miss those times you would sit beside me and watch me sleep when i refuse to wake up. I miss those times you joked about the silliest things . I miss those times when i disturbed you while you were reading the papers. I miss you alot...

2008-02-02T18:46:00.000+08:00

IM NEVER EVER GONNA WALK INTO THAT NEW FUTURE SHOP THINGY ANYMORE. JUST BY LOOKING AT THE CLOTHES I FEEL FREAKING FAT. NOT THAT IM NOT, BUT THE CLOTHES ON DISPLAY ARE PUNY.

Oh wells, lets see.Had bio extra class after school.I think mrs yip is so cool and funny! (X haha After bio weent out with annabel, anne and toon jia yesterday. Walked around for 2hours + ! walked till my legs hurt. BUT prize of the day was DRUMMER BOY !(: HE IS SO FRIGGIN HOT! He look so cute! Abit like wu zun la huh but he cuter! *squeals the person singing was -.- so horrible, not that my singing is very nice but still! Lunch with ainslee, toonjia, cynthia and wan xuan was FUN! Spent 45 mins playing finger games. HAI DAI AH HAI DAI! (X Ainslee calls it the chicken game -.- Cause apparently the actions were ?!?!?!?! haha I TOTALLY HEART HAND GAMES(: So simple yet entertaining (X Loser had to eat the disguting ''delicacy'' we created ( Hor fun sauce + minced pork noodle sauce + ice lemon tea+ apple juice + guava sour plum juice + cucumber) HAHA poor ainslee lost so many times! Especially the chi ko pa game! (X Laughed like mad while playing and the great thing was i havent laughed so much and that freely for a longgg time.

Today amath was o_o had a hard time catching what she was teaching, just finished tuition at least now i know where the square root and curves come from haha I hope i can buy more clothes tomorrow and shoes too. I need money :( Anyway this girl cut her ear today! So freaky! I wanna cry for her. I wonder how shes doing now :X May everything be alright for her. She so poor thing only sec one... So scary also! She started bleeding like?!? Damn scary!!! sigh

Ruggy ball on monday!!! But sad thing is every time we play ruggy ball my nail will chip! :( Grawwww The class chi new year deco look so pretty now!!!(: So chinese new year like haha Durgga's speech during english was the best of the best totally awesome. What she said is totally true and sad :( VOTE FOR DURGGA FOR MS 4S1! DURGGA FOR LIFE!!!

CONCLUSION : DURGGA & DRUMMER BOY FOR LIFE! :D

*p.s anne, drummer boy is MINE HAH!

2008-01-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

This year's chinese new year is going to be so different without you.
I miss you.

2008-01-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

People should really go update themselves. Just so you know cauliflower is SO YESTERDAY -.- Move on la! Haha This week its all about chem, maths and geog. Im gonna pass this chem test by hook or by crook. Cause it only one chapter! Went chinese new year goodies shopping just now, bought alot of stuff :O now my whole fridge is FULL. Haha At first wanted to help my dad save money, but since my sis said this is the time to take WHATEVER I want, i went to push the trolley around to help myself HEHE. Bought the _ already :D cant wait to taste it HEHEHEHE. Anyway there was this BIGG COCKROACH LOOKALIKE BUG IN CLASS :( So disgusting and scary! Lucky it flew away. Heh. So much stuff, so little time. I shall get off the comp now, I HOPE. Haha, wanted to only come online at 1o but Sucky me cant resist the temptation! So here I am -.- Gr ok now BYE.

nadia - OKIE:D prefably on weekends or friday hehe
sophie- Yah! Omgosh! sorry i realised i spelt your name wrongly hehe (X

2008-01-28T21:10:00.001+08:00

First thing first, if you call me an _ _ _, then i do think i deserve the right to do what i want to do. If she can do it last time, why cant i? And if the previous _ didnt stop her, why you stop me? And since you are supposedly called _, shouldnt you have the braveness to speak up? If you cant even do this simple thing, what respect do you want me to have of you? And look, it aint about that matter about why she can and why i cant. Take a look at yourself please. LIKE HELLO I FREAKING HELL WANT TO SLAP YOU UPSIDE DOWN. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO SAID YOU WANTED IT, AND WHEN I ASKED YOU IF IT WAS STILL ON, YOU CAN BLOODY HELL BLATANTLY HAPPILY SAID CANCELLED LAST MIN. AND YOU DONT EVEN BOTHER TO HAVE THE BASIC COURTESY OR RESPONSIBILITY TO GIVE A FRIGGIN _. DO I LOOK SO FREE TO YOU THAT I WOULD WANT TO CALL TO CHAT YOU UP?! FOR GOODNESS SAKE I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING YOU UPSIDE DOWN.
WHEN THEY SAY - PPL ARE THE MOST IRRESPONSIBLE, MOST CORRUPTED SHITS, I TOTALLY AGREE.

im so pissed. i cant wait. i cant wait . i cant wait X INFINITE i would do anything to get out of this fkin place. As i've said before, i only use vulgarities when IM VERY ANGRY. >: @

who said i was talking about you? Ask your consience and you wont have to worry if you didnt do anything.

I know im not the best, but still, i do have the right to angry right? I have the right to express my feelings.

2008-01-27T19:54:00.000+08:00

OMGOSH!!! IM TOTALLY HEARTBROKEN! I should have bought it the previous time man. :( Arghhhhhhh my river island jeans dont have the one i want anymore!!! :( Im so sad:( Ok i know this is bad BUT I FEEL LIKE GOING SHOPPING NOW -.- HAHA But noooo i need to study! Ok so i shall continue doing math :( im in a desperate need of a amath or chem tutor :( I feel like throwing away this tablet so that i can concentrate. Or maybe i should just stay out to study. But then that means i will spend more money!

YOU! you will go down in history! haha Sad thing is you are gone now, but life goes on(: just no more sightseeing HAHA
YOU! why you MIA! :(

CNY coming and i dont know what the hell am I going to do for four days. :\ And now then i realise i have NO SHOES TO GO WITH MY DRESS! :\ Shucks haha

2008-01-26T20:32:00.000+08:00

Night study with anne and soaphie yesterday was quite productive. The black forest was a total turnoff, the coffee bean bits tasted totally awful. Felt as if i was eating tobbacco -.- Soaphie's kids size pasta was so cute!!!(X haha Waited for sis till 11 then went home. Our plan to eat ice cream was a failure! Oh wells next time then :D Weekends are here already, damn fast man. 4 tests next week :(
IM FINDING A AMATH / CHEM TUITION. ANYONE GOT ANY RECCOMENDATION? IF you have any please contact me yeah? :D thanks(:

tag replies;
cynthia- HAHAHA whateverrr i found yours first!(x NYEHHH
donkey- hmm ok thanks for you advice(: You are? and why donkey of all names haha
nadia- YES YES ALL HAIL NADIA *PUKES haha (x

*edited
OMGOSHIE! my sis bought this damn nice blue dress :O but shes gonna wear it for chi new year, which means im no allowed to touch it till new year's over :( OH WELLS HAHA but its really niceeee :D HEHEHE

2008-01-24T20:37:00.000+08:00

Guess what! There is NO homework today! Neither are there any tests tmr!(: After like 4 weeks of hell, finally theres one day when i can REST(: But sadly, next week theres FOUR TESTS : great or great? I think i shall drink alot alot alot of coffee[: can help keep my eyes open as BIG as an owl's heh.
O level results were given out today. I dont take hmt but funny thing was i started c, i was so excited yet scared for the hmt people. And partly because i could feel the intense pressure pressing down on me. Its like every year, the O level's scores improve and the percentage are close to 100%. The if we were to IMPROVE again, how high must we get man. And im afraid i will not meet up with expectations. And i desperately dont want to let my dad down. He has done so MUCH for me,i must never let him down. So again i started c. I cant take it, damn stressed. I really want to get into a good jc now. Its sorta of like a wake up call seeing the seniors taking their o level results. Either i start bucking up or i'd just commit suicide the day i recieve my resutls. Im damn damn damn f stressed. And yet when i want to get down to study, distractions will come.
How i hoped i had made right choices they day i stepped into crecent. But whats done is done. Bearing with it for another few months and freedom to study, here i come. I hope i get my ass down to concentrate. Passing tests are vital so i must study. I hope i just dont say it but actually do it.
Today was THIS close haha. But oh wells not fated huh. But oh wells, i'd get over it soon. Soon enough. I very stressed but yet im not stressed. I dont know what crap im blabbering.
Gosh. I need chem tuition badly. The test was horribly done. Like shit to be exact. I cant even score 1/5 of the paper. Bad or bad? I need someone to brush up my english. I want my 6A1s. Im setting a score too high. But i really want it. Im desperate for it. And no, actually now its not because of the dog my dad promised, but its more of making my dad proud. Really, after all that he have done for me, after all the uneccesary materialistic stuff i want.
CNY is coming. I totally have no mood. Will be damn bored on those 4 days. :
Woah such a long post after such a long while : Oh wells(:

tag replies;
khaliesah - HELLO! :D we must work hard together man!!:D
alyssa- hello alyssa! I think I MUST BE GETTING TOO OLD HUH! >: ( hahahaha next time i shall find a chance to take revenge HAHA (X

Stop and stare,i think im moving but i dont know where.

2008-01-20T14:44:00.000+08:00

edited ; why when i say i dont care at all, it still hurts me to see them sad? :( sigh.. i think i know what to do alr(: hehe suprise my dears, suprise(: ok just read toonjia's blog, 2 more weeks to cny :O I REALLY WANT MY GREY JEANS NOW :( i hope its still on sae :X shal go raffles to buy them this sat (: JEANS! HERE I COMEEE(:

;Gosh, im really amazed on how i can stay awake on thurs till 1 plus in the morning :O Ok fine im amazed because i had nc and came home around 7plus :\ haha drank tea and coffee. CAFFIENE CAFFIENE makes you get high :D stayed up to cram bio, sadly didnt have time to cram for chem :( Bio was ok, i really hope to pass!!! :( chem was errrrrrrrr... hmmm... BAD. i fell asleep twice and left alot of blanks. Tsk tsk, i need chem tuition :( Sigh... House party in the afternoon. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE CURIE HOUSE COMM O7/O8, you guys are DA BOMBBB!!! :D its was pure madness, but the after part was damn bad :X Felt bad having that game, sigh... but oh wells. ANYWAY I MUST STUDY! I MUST STUDY! :( Sigh, someone motivate me? Ok fine, although my dad did, by promising me a dog if i get 5A1s in Os, but i mean thats so long laterrr!!! :( boohoohoo I must really go fix my mindset, Os coming and yet im still thinking of play :X hmmm Im still thinking bout the grey river island grey jeans. I WANT IT NOWWWW!!! i regret not buying it last weekend, sobsob i want it :( I need to get shoes too!! I want my psp slim too! I dont mind a nitendo ds either. i need a new WORKING comp or laptop, with a GOOD keyboard. My current one is killing me :( Ok i shall stop being a spoilt brat and study. I hope i study today :D.

1.BINGO YOU GOT IT RIGHT!
2. If you like it this way, fine
3. Im really excited for THAT day, cant wait cant wait!
4. the only good thing is that I OVE CURIE HOUSE COMM O7/O8<3!
p.s Im still wondering HOW DID POWDER GET ONTO MY HAIR! *stares at alyssa haha
AND how the hell did money get into my bag! *stares at twinkle and whoever helped haha
HAHA hope to have more curie outings:DDDDD

2008-01-16T21:27:00.000+08:00

My big aunt visited me during amath -.- Make my stomach hurt so much. I hate cramps! It was so bad till i cried ok! its THAT bad :( cabbed home due to the piercing pain :( Thats one thing why i hate being a girl :( I cant wait for class tee, cause i want to run around with the shirt over my head with aqilah :D My morning today was AWESOME, AWESOME AWESOME! :D hehehehe wish i have more doses of that (x All HAILl NADIA! She found something for me!! :D i ove her to bits and pieces :D SS test tmr and chem and bio test on fri :O Better get my ass back into work :( I know im not the best person on earth, who am i to say, but look whose talking eh?

hearing the truth was good but hurtful. Just when you think they are trustable, they are the crappiest f in the world. I shall just bear with it. Hoho, besides im already starting to ignore it. Get a life dear, cause im not gonna be a joke like you. Im not saying im the best, just take a look at yourself. lets just maybe start with the word re-? haha you know yourself the best.

p.s i only use vulgarities when im really angry, so you get the point

2008-01-15T21:49:00.000+08:00

My moodswings are getting from bad to worst. Self-control. I need ots of it. 5mins ago, i would be laughing, a min later i wi start to sulk, a few mins ater i will get pissed at people for no reason, and a few mins laterrrr i will be happy again. im mad tsk.

Its been 8months, i still cant accept the fact that you're gone. Sigh, and the radio just have to play the same old song every night. I want to die.:(

2008-01-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

Went out with my sis today. Went to get new year clothes. But the weird thing is i dont even think we will ceebrate it this year -.- So im most probably gonna be free for four days, ask me out. Anyone?:D I already planned what to do when im alone at home at night. HIAKHIAKHIAK secret!! ask me then i will tell you. But its nothing big la huh. So yepp. Got quite a few cothes today and i feel very accomplished. Thanks to retail therapy im in a good mood now. hehe got my NICE NICE lEVIS JEANS!!! :D so prettayeee (: a nice pair of shorts, belt, a top andddd MY PRIZE BUY TODAY, MY DRESS!!!(: its so niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee goshhh (x but thats not enough, gotta find time to buy more clothes but its all tests the upcoming weeks. BOOHOO :( i seriously cant wait for chi new year man, can sleep(: hehe but it also means grow fat. :(

OK ENOUGH OF THE HAPPY SIDE. IM SUPPOSED TO BE STERN AND MONOTONOUS CAUSE IM TAKING OS. I GOTTA BE SERIOUS LIKE TOTALLy!
1.IM SO PISSED AT MYSElF! i ost my stupid ezlink card!! ARGHHH 2nd time! grahhhhhh :(
2.IM SO DEAD,I HAVENT STUDY OR DO ANY HW THE WHOE OF TODAY, SO IM GONNA LIKE BE A NERD TMR. AT LEAST TRY TO(: HEHE
3. I DONT CARE AT ALL, uness the 2 disagrees, im sorry dears
4. I NEED CHEM TUITION. I CANT PAY ATTN OR EVEN STAY FOCUSED TO CHEM :(
5. DIEDIEDIE BIO AND CHEM TEST AND I DONT KNOW WTH IS GOING ON
6. I NEED TO WAKE UP! IM STILL SEEPING :(
7. I WANT MY 5A1s BADLY! I WANT MY DOG BOOHOO :(
8. I CANT WAIT FOR a and j!!!! HEH HEH HEH
9. I NEED TO SERIOULY LOSE WEIGHT! IM GETTING AS FAT AS A PIG
1o. I WANT A NEW CAM, THE CURRENT ONE SUCKS
11.MY ATTITUDE IS BADDD VERY BADD, MUST CHANGE MUST CHANGE!
12. I CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT WEEKEND (:
HEH. i have much more complaints but i guess i'll end here (x I want to drink ice lemon tea.... -.-

2008-01-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

its breakout season. everyone's face condition is like damn bad? haha anyway imma pig. i slept for four hours this afternoon! shouldnt have rushed home :\ slept from 5 till , woke up realised no tuition, wrong day, went back to seep till 8. shucks my nerd plan aint working :X fell asleep during lit while ''watching'' the movie. haha Slept damn well, even got dream! but i forgot hehe Assembly was ok, except for the -(descriptive word verb ---,) you think you very big ah? i want to smack you upside down >: ( grahhh went to tiong with section of the part for unch. I need a chem tutor. Everyday is like going to a warzone. I keep thinking i either forgot to bring something or do homework. Seriously, everyones like turning into a nerd. And its like what? 5th day of school? NEW ONE, CAULIFLOWER!!! (X haha ok, i think im mad, im sleepy now -.-BUT i need to study for emath now so,bye!(: till then love(:
i dont think y`a are ready, ooking at your attires and compaints i received, you can continue to dream. Wake up man, wake up, they are here aready...

2008-01-06T21:40:00.001+08:00

CAMPFIRE WAS A BLAST!:D

despite the stomach ache, and almosts nervous breakdown hehe. WELL DONE EVERYONEZXZXZXZ :D haha

Firsty, WELL DONE OUR(ry and my) LIL FIGHTERS:D GREAT JOB YESTERDAY! keep up the good work! All your hardwork paid off(: hurrah! haha

CHA CHA CHARLIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE <3!

PDS WAS A BLAST:D MARVELLOUS JOB EVERYONE HEHE thanks for being there for me and the list of thanking goes on(:

i hope no one could .ip read, hehehe (x anyway imma gonna be a nerd! im gonna chiong! Im gonna get my at least 5A1s and get my dog! heh heh heh! better ask my dad to start saving up and my sis to get mentally prepared, cause i can do this!!! (: you can ask me out, but ask me out for STUDYING :D i must really go fix my english cause i cant write a good compo while it takes my sis damn fast to write a beautiful one. GOSH....

to you ; the chances of you reading this is like zero? but oh wells,i jsut have to say this. everytime we take a step forward, we go back 3 , im so tired of this. sigh im blabbering nonsense. i dont know if i *#%&*%#@%&($#%&# sigh i better stop thinking about this matter and concentrate on studying. GRAHHHH. im going maddd

i think i should stop putting my phone beside me when i sleep, cause im begining to suspect that i delete msges when i sleep. shucks im maddddddddddddddd

school's tmr, im so tired. BUT NO! I MUST BE MOTIVATED. I CAN DO THIS!!! go go go!!!

back to chem, bye love(:

2007-11-11T23:10:00.000+08:00

ok i just realised im getting blacker each day! HAHA oh yeah and fatter too >: ( boohoo. oh wells i am turning crazy. I have been watching fighting scenes of the same different shows over and over again! And yet im not done with my task. And the time now is 11.25pm. HELP! ): I swear im going mad. My eyes are closing. And dear constance, i know my english not very good. Please bear with me k? Hehe. AND I FIXED MY KEYBOARD!!!!! yay! without paying a single cent. Just being myself. Guess how i did it? Haha, all it took me was to hit the key vigorously and TADA! LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL starts coming out:D and soon I WAS ABLE TO TYPE 0,6,' TOO! YAY! haha ok tmr's gonna be a long day. Sigh.. i want to sleep ):
went to someone's blog and heard alot of nice songs! So stupid to open the window, not to read the posts but to hear songs -.- HAHA
I dont know if im happy or sad now. Cause thought of some things, which made me sad): but then again i dont want to feel sad! so i watch nobuta wo produce. Got happier, but i know this wouldnt last long. Sigh.. Oh wells, bye.

2007-11-10T21:02:00.000+08:00

OHKAY, im back:D in a better mood, compared to previous post(: and my stupid keyboard is spoit!!! >: @ cant type ,zero, six, aproxofy yada yada, and its geeting on my nerves!!! but then again i refuse to fix it cause it cost 8O pus, haven count in gst and if my warranty is ove>:@ stupid im so angry. we went ikea to `ceebrate` shiyu`s birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIYU! MAY YOU NOT BE SO BENG ANYMORE(: im so tired! i wanna seep, but have to wait ti 2am for my sis to come home boohoo :( and i cant beieve i got sun burnt from activity!!!!! i suck man, but oh wes at east i ook heathier :D
i have faith in you guys, if i havent given up on every singe one of you, you shoudnt be giving up on yoursef, i know its gonna be a ong and tough journey before im gone, but i know you guys can do it, just bear with it k, some of you are trying but some sti seeping, wake up ah!!!! as ong as you try your best, im happy(: and if you did not try your best, you are ony etting yousef down. pay hard work hard, theres no free unch in this word(:

2007-11-01T19:37:00.000+08:00

vugar posts are saved for private viewing at J. but just so you know a sth for a of you
`my ife is fished up enough, i dont need more troubes,so uness i change my mind, its fuck you and goodbye word

2007-10-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

maybe this is a little late, but last thursday was the last day of the school year. Lets see, 2007 was a whole lot of shit for me but of course some fun inserted here and there(: before i regret not using next year wisely, its better to change things now than never.

3S107
still remembering last nov or dec, when toon jia and I looked at our class list, we were like 0_0 maybe we chose the wrong class(quote unquote toonjia). But through this year, many of you guys changed(: to the better of course. I know my english not very good and I dont think you guys would read this but still I would still type it out here(:
I admit I havent beent he greatest chair for the class, my efficiency rate was very low, I did not really set a good example, like handing in homework and stuff, always screaming, scolding you guys. Sorry for the things I've done to make you guys unhappy.
At first I really regretted joining s1. As in I thought the company would be ''GREAT''. Starting of the year, it was really crap, the roses failure, the uncooperativeness of the class, mainly class spirit, I even got into some quarrels with you guys, and some of you were complaining about each other. But as time went by, like I've said even though I wasnt the best chair ever but many of you changed for the better. Especially near finals, I could really see everyone working damn hard unlike the usual, playing a fool in class. And yes some of your attitudes changed for the better(: But about class spirit and cooperation, we've got a long way to go man!
I cannot emphasise on how bad i am as a chair to you guys, but yeah although I dont even exist in your eyes, but some of you really grown to become more matured. Yeah and we've gotta work more on impressions infront of teachers,a nd learning to get along with each other. I dont wish to leave crescent next year, not enjoying a fruitful sec 4 life, I dont think you want that to happen either right?
Oh wells, whatever is I STILL LOVE 3S1`07(:
cause ' this aint a scence, its CLASS 3S1!'

CHARLIE07
woah, we've been together for like what 3 years? well, this year we went through quite alot of shit together, but still, my life would have been even more miserable without you guys.
i'll save the lil msges for you guys soon enough. cause this must be kept discreet(: only for your eyes and mine:D but in general, thanks for everything, seriously this year was the worst year ever for me, i would have commited suicide or sth, but thanks to all 14 of you, you guys made me stronger and wiser as the day passes. ILY charlie07.(: AND when i mean 14, i really mean 14(if you get what i mean)

quote of the day (sorry for the vulgarity used)
''some people work like bloody fools but get nothing, but some people do nothing but gets everything''
lifes unfair, too bad.

I really cant wait for next year, a fresh year, when i can take a lil slack for responsibilities yet study damn hard at the same time. I CAN DO THIS! :D oh wells, till then love(:

2007-10-23T17:17:00.000+08:00

No more vulgarities from me i hope(: i shall sound nicer by using this sentence:
im so angry at you i wanna stuff lollipops into your nose, marshmellows into your ears and maltcandy into your eyes then pull it out(:
sound so sweet yet bad right!>:) haha anyway

firstly, i apologized. dont want it? im fine with it dear. if you wanna be this way let it be, *YOU THINK YOU SO BIG AH? haha nice sentence right? tsk

secondly, i know you're higher than me, but my fighting spirit is always higher than yours. cry all you want, i dont care, cause it dont matter no more, im not gonna endure you freaking
pathertic face whenever a problem comes

thirdly, you 2 sided soul >:(

fourthy i love cas lee jing jing, and she is also the most childish person i ever known! haha and i have a healthy heart unlike you! NYEH NYEH! XD HEHE 14 of our children are ''sick'' today! what did you feed them? HAHA was dozing off in lessons, and i thought i was supposed to be studying now for next year least i regret again! hoho): study study study! and do i really look so unfriendly when i dont smile? haha

lastly, whatever it is, i still love you MOYAH! stay strong and dont give up!!!(:

2007-10-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

i seriously dont know where to start. today is the worst day of my life. ok fine everyday is the worst day of my life. i think this year is screwed-est year ever. first her, then results,then this. MY results were damn horrible.The most heartbreaking thing is that i studied really really hard for a and e math, yes i know its last minute, but i really chiong until i cannot chiong. But come out i failed both. Chem too, although i didnt study that hard i was quite shocked i got ..... sighs.. i very scared i ... i will really do things unexpected if i .... sighs... and then now this. Although how much i want to have a major breakdown, but i shall keep myself strong, and work even harder. For the sake of them, i cannot give up just like that.
I got my piece of my mind out. Thats it, now or never. Who am I to interfere but at least I know I tried. You may hate me like crap, but it doesnt really matter now. Now that my studies is like crap, everything is just going downhill.

*this post sounds weird, changed some words to nicer words. oh yeah like whatever la.

im speechless. Talk to me I will say alot of things, if not shut up and close this window. (if anyone is even reading this. tsk)
OK great im feeling moody alr. Great.

2007-10-15T17:12:00.000+08:00

GEEE I SWEAR ONE DAY I WILL GO ''OINK'' OR ''MOO'' pigged out at home today, AGAIN. wanted to go out with connie and wundy today BUT yesterday, one dunno go where the other was badmooding, nth was confirmed so i thought we aint going out, so i happily stayed up to watch tv till 3 am [: what joy! this morning, the phone started ringing and it was connie. telling me shes on her way to my hse! as usual, i slept at 3am. not enough sleep = a moody me, so i pangsehed her :X sorry guys! LOVE YA'LL STILL HEE woke up at 1pm and wanted to rent cds. HOWEVER after choosing the disks i wanted to rent for almost like half an hour, when i was gonna pay, ''sorry, not 16 cannot rent'' I WAS LIKE ?!??!?!? GRRR >: ( constance calls this KARMA. yeah :\ watched bring it on part 2. im hooked up to it now -.- SHABUYA SHA SHA SHABUYA ROLL CALL. shall watch it to give me some inspiration(: so i sat infront of the couch and glued myself to the tv. Ate chicken + rice for lunch. I HATE CHICKEN! it was damn oily and full of fats, makes me wanna puke :\ i hate fatty and oily stuff. cause it'll clog up your ateries and you'll die, or the worst thing is the you'll GROW FAT ): im turning into a cow :\ well fish's still the best '[: i hate pork and lamb too so smelly yuck oh wells, spent my wonderful saturday at bra's hse. it kept raining! fishy didnt learn how to ride bike in the end ): so we slacked and slacked and ate and ''swam'' HAHA not exactly swam but played in the pool. last part was the best! ZHI CHA and ''gym'' HEHEHEHE although the rain got on our nerves, it was a fun saturday, thanks bra! and fishy and wundy (: oh wells, gotta start studying for next year. i hope i will do what i needa do :\

this is the first time i've heard of it.

OH WELLS, WUNDY'S DA BEST :D

LOOK HERE!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ok i found it funny :D

2007-10-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

didnt want to post today but since today was a happy day i shall post. actually the purpose of me posting is this:

WELL DONE CURIE!!! WHOOO! NOT BAD NOT BAD! IMPROVING! WE CAN DO IT!!!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK PEOPLE(: ITS A GOOD WAY TO END THIS YEAR, AND IM SURE WE CAN HAVE A GREAT FRESH START NEXT YEAR! WELL DONE TO THOSE WHO PLAYED AND HELPED OUT IN TODAY'S INTERHOUSE GAMES! YAYYAYYAY! GIVE YOU FELLOW CURIAN A PAT WHEN YOU SEE EM K:D hehehe

oh wells i guess thats all(: ohoh before that lunch with toonie annabel and sophie at cine was great :D someone wants to say hi.

Robert says : HI! :D IM HEALTHY CAUSE IM MADE UP OF VEGGIES AND RICE :D

hehehehe i love playing with food HEH HEH X)

2007-10-10T18:11:00.000+08:00

dressed as MIB and walked out of the house to town. HAHA no la, crescent nc+ trackpants = MIB. hahaha, so went to help out shiyu's part for orienteering. became a ''medic'' for 1 hour. but no one fell *touch wood touch wood but oh wells(: next time next time haha. then talked to waihan alot alot alot. got all my thoughts out, and still i think whatever i think is correct. haha waihan and I talked so much till we took the wrong turn! HAHAHA and we had to orienteer ourselves out of the fernhill HAHAHAHA X) went PS to get cloth, ate and left for home. I WANT A DESKTOP! I WANT A NEW PRINTER ): IM DEPRIVED! *CRIES ok fine i promise i will make do with a faster ram? please? ): haha wendy bring me go buyyyy!!! soon!! PLEASEEE!): my stupid tablet is loading as slow as an ah ma or slower :\ BLAH but i still want a desktop :\ fine im contradicting :\ great tmr theres school, no sleeping late): and I realised I left my a math tuition stuff in school! which = rushing all the hw she gave ): AHHHH and theres interhouse gaes for sec ones, talks and more talks :\ save me please!): couldnt sleep last night, a damn beetle was disturbing and my sis is the ''best'' i swear :\
sis: the beetle can fly one leh
me: WHAT?!?! ITS SO BIG WHERE IS IT?!?!
sis: on the pillow
me: WHAT?!?!??! AHHH HOW???
*clap hands yes! i know use container to cover! HEH HEH HEH im like so smart?
ok lets put on the table and let dad deal with it when he comes home
sis: later tmr one whole nest of beetle surround the container then you know! HAHAHAHA *goes to sleep
me: WHAT/!??!?!?!
I CANT BELIEVE SHE LEFT ME WITH THE BEETLE AND MY DAD DID NOT REPLY MY MSG! ok fine they both ignored m, so did adik and ana when i told them online :\ managed to sleep only at 1 plus am. great im damn tired now, later still got tuition): sighs....

*c'mon people show us you can do it! one for all all for one! c'monnnnnnn its there, waiting just for you, its just whether you want to work for it or not!!!

who said it was for you? ; ) HAHAHA go figure la

2007-10-09T13:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday night was AWESOME(: CHARLIE07<333s

GAHH BLOGGER ATE UP MY WHOLE POST, i hate blogger>:(
BLAHHH sorry lazy to retype, details please refer to adik's blog HAHA x)
oh wells shall go do amath later :\ sorry toon,cas and annabel! couldnt get my lazy ass off the house. hehe we'll go tann and cycle another day i promise :D

2007-10-07T20:22:00.000+08:00

I BOUGHT MANY MANY MANY THINGS TODAY :D thus I AM A VERY VERY VERY HAPPY PERSON:D bought my shades WAHAHAHAHA XD stupid adik claimed i looked like a damn housefly. >: p HAHA walked around marina and suntec till my feet hurt ): but all is worth it, esp the money didnt come out from my own pocket hehe I LOVE MY DAD:D *hugs cant wait for tmr!!! so excited!!! AHHH but sadly aint all coming down): oh wells.. ): im excited to see what fishy would wear tmr x) HEHEHEHEHEHE

no school tmr;)

TO ALL CHARLIE07 (except toon,ana,nita) -

GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST FOR YOU LAST PAPER TMR(: Go hug the calculator to sleep tonight, ALL THE BEST TO YOU GUYS! LOVE YA'LL LOADS!(: MAY THE EINSTIEN BRAIN BE WITH YOU!:D THINK OF ME AND YOU'LL DO WELL HAHA JOKING X) BUT BUT TRY YOU BEST DONT GIVE UP K:D HANG IN THERE! look forward to the night :D GOOD LUCK X INFINITEEEEE :D

WITH HUGS AND KISSES,

THE ONE AND ONLY

AYAH(:

hehe x)

2007-10-06T23:46:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE LIKE OVERRRRRRRRRR! whoohoo! ok now im scared that i'll fail ): oh wells let me enjoy myself for a few days before i get back into my ''working'' and ''studying'' mode. long weekend is here(: sat-wed NO SCHOOL. HEH HEH HEH. I want to go to the beach! ): i need a tan im like getting whiter and whiter each day blah... I am like a pig, stayed home the whole day today watch shows, eat, sleep, talk, next thing i know im saying oink -.- HAHA monday night :D cant wait!!! hope we can all come down, all 15 of us :D
I think im getting old, my back hurts :\ OHOH! and I need to start exercising, I feel like a ball especially exam period no exercise, eat sleep study, so sinful 0_0 HAHA oh wells gotta go sleep(: retail theraphy tmr, hope I can get something nice(: HEHEHE
my dad is da bombb!!!
me: daddy what time you coming home??
dad: not sure why?
me: ermmm tmr me and jie going out shopping...
dad: ok tmr morn then say k?
me: er... but we going out in the morn..
dad: ok can can
me: *goes straight to the point but we no money!!! ):
dad: okok give you all tmr
>:) heh heh heh I LOVE MY DAD! :D

2007-09-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

monday was hell. sometimes, one gets too tired to try, all I can say now is '' I tried too many times'' maybe a little time will heal or maybe it'll just go on like that. Actions are louder than words? I dont know.

HIATUS TILL 5th OCT. Till then! Hope I will refrain from the comp . HEH.

2007-09-08T11:50:00.000+08:00

one more day before sch reopens and I havent done any hw!!! 0_0 im like so dead man! sighs, have been waking up so early the whole week, so much of a holiday :\ but well had a fruitful week, travveling up and down sg like no one's business, so tired :\ GIVE ME A BREAKKKKK!!!

i can only help you till here, whether you all want to do well, its all up to you.

FYE IN 4 WEEKS :X

2007-08-26T13:33:00.000+08:00

dont bother to read down yeah? Its just a post of rants. BLAH.
I feel so emo after hearing somewhere over the rainbow on this youtube video hazel sent me last night. As in it reminded me of some things.Through that incident it made me feel like a female dog.I really hate those people who act like they care, get angry at me, and think they know everything but dont know how I really feel inside. Who says a person must look sad when shes sad. Who says she must cry and bawl her feelings out in front of everyone. Who says one must do certain things to show people she's really sad. Who says shes not allowed to do happy things to help forget the pain and sadness she is feeling. Who says she not sad at all. Who says she must do this and that. Who are you to control my life? You dont even know whats happening in my life, who are you to say this and that, I thank you for coming that time, but im sorry, you just made me hate you.
who says you = one person?
I feel bad enough already and I dont need another person to lecture me off, try having you lose someone close to you and then having people ranting and saying different stories to you. I HATE EVERYTHING. Im pathetic, my life's even worst.
I really really miss you, I want to hug you, I want to go back to the past when you were around, when you left, I felt that I didnt really know you and what you wanted, the only thing I knew was that you wanted my studies to be great. sighs, I hate sundays. I relate sundays = emo days.
Im quite forked up nowadays, happy as I may seem but im just really restless. And I mean seriously, I've lost everything that was to me, and its impossible to get that feeling back again. I really miss you, and I really mean it.
I'll be really happy for the next week. And lets just wait for next sunday, its ranting time.
cause Im really tired, and I dont know what im doing, im just living each day as it passes.
I NEED YOU GOD. sighs...
I HATE MY LIFE.